I think I was pretty normal in how much I wanted to interact with other kids (and how much I did). That desire either got weaker as I got older, or else it's just because I can't fit in normally socially that I couldn't let myself feel that desire as much? Or some combination, I don't know.
nominalist wrote:
I would sometimes show an interest in people, but it was almost never reciprocated. Once in a while, someone would pretend to befriend me. However, because I was so awful at reading nonverbal cues, I could not tell whether they were serious. I recall getting hurt quite a bit.
I think that's happened to me too, which is why I have to operate from the position of assuming the worst.