When you close your eyes...,
Wow, I thought it was just me!
As a very small child, one of my earliest memories is of lying in bed with my eyes closed watching my "inner landscape".
The nearest thing I can compare it to is the patterns on a screensaver (did whoever invented tham do this????)
It is like I am flying over square or rectangular "planes" in very dark colours (green/brown/red/orange) which slowly rotate & turn over to reveal a new one underneath in a different colour.
And then I used to look forward to the bursts of light (blue & gold) which would sometimes appear "far away" & sometimes right close to me, usually in my peripheral vision. My quest was to get one to do it right in front of me!
I have always wondered if this is what babies do to pass the time in the womb, and some of us just carry it on long enough to remember it as adults?
I'm almost ALL audio, I think. When my eyes are open, I'm usually looking at nothing, unless there is movement, or an anomaly. I am totally oblivious to things until they are missing, like if someone takes something from my seemingly random scattering of stuff, I notice, just as I notice anyone sneaking up on me in my sleep; I'm instantly awake, ultra-calm, yet ready to kill someone. I don't like being unaware of movement. Otherwise, I can sleep through world war 3.
More on this later...
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i see a very dark shade of brown and then orangy lights, but can vary from yellow to red to green sometimes. its kind of like when you look at the sun for too long and then you close your eyes. the only difference is that i can move them around t make funny pictures. when i think i see fuzzy images but in a photographic sort of way. if i think about a freind, for expample, saying something that i have never heard them say, i can pretty much create a recorded conversation in my head with the same stresses and accents on words and such like. i dunno maybe its something everyone can do.
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I wanted to mention that I CAN visualize to a degree, but only with eyes open - it helps to have the visual equivalent of "white noise" to occupy my eyes while what I am thinking of is not quite visual, just a way of recognizing and classifying location and movement, the way you can pinpoint where someone is by how close their voice sounds. Spatial is not the same as visual for me, it is a compensatory system, a jury-rig for what others can do normally.
I can't "visualize" things which are static, only those things which are in flux, which might be the root of my addiction to chaos, why I need to lose control on drugs and alcohol as a stim - I'm not losing control, I'm processing! Staying out of chaos for too long is the same for me as sticking my head underwater for too long - death.
When I stare ahead, eventually what is in front of my eyes will melt away, recede, and I will see grids and tunnels, but NOT see them, like when you look at the stars and see ones in your peripheral vision, and when you try and focus on them they disappear. I use the same technique to see in the dark, which I love. The dark is all mine!
Predator with DTS surround is amazing - I love the small tweeting birds off to the left, Jesse Ventura raking the jungle with a chaingun on center channel, the brass and disintegrating links falling and clinkning down on my right, explosions are EVERYWHERE thanks to the subwoofer. I love that WHUM sound you get when you see through the Predator's eyes.
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Due to normal retinal fatigue, obviously, I see the afterimage of whatever I was looking at: a hazy negative, which quickly becomes unrecognizable and eventually fades away. After that? Black. Some color, in squiggles around the edges of my field of vision. They're mostly purple and green, but some are red. They're more like moving flickers that appear like very thin, shaky, squiggly lines.
Also starbursts. Waves. Form constants? Maybe.
I'm not high, honest. I think it's still the last remains of retinal fatigue and probably depends a lot on what I was just looking at. It's different every time.
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Also starbursts. Waves. Form constants? Maybe.
I'm not high, honest. I think it's still the last remains of retinal fatigue and probably depends a lot on what I was just looking at. It's different every time.
what you describe is similar to what I see. Except I see the patterns all over, and white instead of red, and they aren't THAT thin. I also CAN almost visualize like it is in my peripheral vision. Not REALLY seen, not read, but still percieved to be very useful.
Unfortunately, It turns out that even when I was about 6, I really TRIED to be able to actually SEE stuff. So I know that, even then, I couldn't do much better.
Based on stories here, and past experience, I doubt I am as bad as the average NT or even the average autistic.
Except....since I am autistic, by definition, my existence is in my mind. So, I do see (a lot) with my eyes closed; like a mirror inside somehow. I doubt this makes sense, but I do see with my mindblindness. I see the unseen.
When dreaming, people's eyes are closed, of course, so this shouldn't seem so strange. Dreams are vivid.
Ya, I can retain that reverse color photograph for a second or so. If I keep my eyes closed longer I start to see flashes of color, and werid shapes.
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DX'ed with HFA as a child. However this was in 1987 and I am certain had I been DX'ed a few years later I would have been DX'ed with AS instead.
Interesting discussion because I am still try to discover what is exactly I can 'see'. I'm quite unusual in that I don't see images in my head at all except in dreams. Meaning it would be impossible for me to 'visualize' a tree for example. If you asked me imagine something I have just bee show that would be impossible too. I don't really think like that, I don't think in words either.
I'm trying to teach myself how to see images in my head. So I don't have to repeat myself here are some excerpts from emails to a psychologist guy that help diagnose me:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blindsight
‘Blindsight is a phenomenon in which people who are perceptually blind in a certain area of their visual field demonstrate some visual awareness, without any qualitative experience ('qualia'). In Type 1 blindsight subjects have no awareness whatsoever of any stimuli, but yet are able to predict at levels significantly above chance aspects of a visual stimulus, such as location, or type of movement, often in a forced-response or guessing situation. Type 2 blindsight is when subjects have some awareness of, for example, movement within the blind area, but mo visual percept, or qualia. This may be caused by, for example, the person being aware of their eyes' tracking motion which will function normally. Blindsight is caused by injury to the part of the brain responsible for vision, such as may occur in wars or in a car accident.’
From a neurology student:
‘If you shine a light at the person's face and ask them, "Can you see "this," they'll say no. But if instead, they shine the light and say, "point towards the light," the person is able to do so.
Same thing happens if you hold objects in front of their face.... They say they can't see anything but if you ask them to grasp the object, the person extends their hand out in the correct direction... And if you hold a basket ball versus a golf ball and ask them to reach for it, the person is able to do so and also adjust their hand accordingly to appropriately grasp a Bball or golfball.
Also, they are able to recognize facial expressions from pictures ~ 70% of the time as well.... without "seeing" anything’
Anton’s Syndrome is like this but they can’t actually guess, but deny being blind despite not being able to physically see. They ‘see’ exclusively with their imagination.
I’m the sort opposite to these. I can see things in front of me clearly. But I don’t see anything anywhere else other than in dreams.
I have a hard time understanding where people ‘see’ their thoughts. I remember talking to my ex-shrink Belinda. I was asking her where she ‘saw’ these images. She put here hand to the right above her head. So I asked her if it was like they have in cartoons know as ‘thought bubbles’ to the side of the person. She said sort of but it was not actually there but inside her head. She couldn’t tell me if the images were in a particular shape like a rectangle or cloud. I don’t really understand she can be aware of it but not know these things. If it is in you head how could she see me and have these images at the same time. Like if you are driving a car and have one of these thought images pop up wouldn’t you loose control of the vehicle, because you vision is obscured?
I can’t see things in my head and this makes some things like places/routes difficult to remember. I have trouble with getting lost. That is one of the reasons why I don’t drive nowadays even though I have a driving licence, because I can’t go anywhere outside my area. The furthest I’ve gone on my own in a car is croydon/cystal palace area from clapham. I had to be shown several times, then I printed out and stuck together a A1 size map with highlighted route, which I was pulling over to look at the whole time made some mistakes. But what’s most weird is I’m not as severe as I should be. I do actually recognise quite a lot despite my ‘imaging blindness’ some of these probably go beyond my apparent ‘definition’ way of thinking with the detail. It does work in a similar way to blind sight. If I’m not in front of the object I can’t visualise or remember what it is like. But when I see something I can fairly often recognise it if I know to. My main problem is the order. It is much more difficult to know the where these things lie. I don’t have a virtual map. But sometimes I can find my way. Like going to LANC last time I was able to get there without looking at a map or making a mistake. I had to try filter out the mistakes me and my family made the first time we went. On foot it can work for a journey of that length or shorter. I can take in the ‘sight’ as I come to them and then make an assessment of whether it seems familiar. The more complex the environment the more difficult I find it. I remember, was at a meet and suggested going to a restaurant that was recommended to me just in the side street after the globe theatre. I have a pretty good idea what that is, having been to it. I know where it is in roughly relation to some tube stations. Having the river there simplifies it somewhat because you can just walk along it looking at things. However I was talking while trying to lead them so I completely missed the globe theatre and I we went on walking further and further east. The rest of the surrounding was completely meaningless to me. We got to a point where there was no more walk way along the Thames without having to go quite a bit ‘in land’. I said “I’m surprised we haven’t got to the globe theatre yet”. They told me we passed it 15 minutes prior. So we had to walk all the way back.
I don’t view the direction problem as a major obstacle I can use maps quite well. But I think visualisation must be crucial in thinking. I believe this is one of the main reasons why I have cognitive problems.
Isn't it odd that some people that can see all these images in their head can't draw? I'm ok at drawing and art. I struggle with detailed stuff but I like shapes and colours and I understand the concepts in art like perspective. Even when I'm drawing from life when I look at the canvas or page, I can't remember/visualise the image in front of me but I have a short of definition of the detail I'm focusing on. You would think if you can see these images in your head that would make you much better at art but not everyone who can see these photographic images can draw them.
I’m going to write to various people that left their email there research papers on the NAS website. My cousin is a neuroscientist. She did some research in visual perceptual rivalry with Tibetan monks who were meditating. This is an article, which is worth reading, includes stuff about attention and contains some of her work:
http://www.sfn.org/index.cfm?pagename=news_111305d
This is that attachment. Not that impressive but the best I can do. I can't do this all the time. I tried several times since and got nothing. I think I have to be in a special state of not yet fully awake.
This is terribly cliche, but I honestly thought I was one of the only people who saw things! [blush]
I see quite a few visual effects, with my eyes closed and open. Eyes open, there's a very thin sheen of white and black "static" or "white noise" underlaying my vision, and little wormy squiggles which move at random through the static. If I stare at a blank wall of any colour (preferably light) I can watch them move about -- its like watching plankton move in the ocean, but smoother. I also often see sparkles and flashes of light out of the corners of my eyes, mostly the left one, as well as seeing "smog beings" (for lack of a better term) move about on light walls or dark corners.
Eyes closed, same sort of thing, but with a black background. The static becomes white, pink, blue, green and yellow, and makes defined shapes and whorls instead of the little planktons (although those still come around somewhat).
When I was little, I used to put myself to sleep by travelling through a dark tunnel with my eyes closed. It was like I was flying out of my body between my eyes, hurtling through space. The tunnel was "lined" with strobing, neon lights and shapes, as well as "stars" just outside of the walls. Unfortunately, when I mentioned this to my mother, she mentioned it to her doctor, who decided I was either psychotic or iron deficient, possibly even diabetic. He ordered a large blood test that day, and from that point on, I've never been able to call the tunnel back. It took me years to call back the static and "plankton". Of course, now she knows better, and takes all my eccentricities and visions in stride. I wish we'd known that it was normal back then... I've suffered from chronic insomnia since I lost the tunnel.
when i close my eyes, i see different patterns all around, my thoughts as well become one big picture, then usually i end up seeing myself spinning in circles surrounded by royal blue color floating in the air, yesss weird i know haha.
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The little wormy squiggles are called floaters and are totally normal. Everybody sees them. You might also see round ones. They're just left-over cells floating around in your eyes. They don't really move randomly, though. They sink down, and trying to watch them makes them appear to move (since moving your eye obviously moves the floater as well, making it impossible to keep up unless it's perfectly centered). If you want to get a better view of them, try lying on your back so that they sink to the backs of your eyes, and watch them against the sky or a blank ceiling.
I see the flashes too, sometimes. Mostly in the evenings and any time it's dark, especially before I sleep. You might want to ask an optometrist about yours, since they sometimes indicate problems, such as the retina separating from the back of the eye and fluid leaking underneath. But not always. I don't know what cause mine, but my optometrist had a good look at my retina after I got punched in the eye, and he said it was secure all around, so I'm not so worried about that.
I don't know what the smog beings are.
I think the tunnel is just the power of your mind doing what it needs to do. Try to relax and focus, and maybe you can get it back.
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I see colours shifting and moving in different patterns; they often form into pictures of things, like watching a slideshow, or sometimes more like video. When they form into pictures or video, I typically have no idea where the images came from, almost like flipping through random channels on the TV. I am unsure if the things I see are seeping out of my memory, or simply being generated by my imagination; I've often wondered as to the source.
I have not done this for years, but before I used to create rather intriguing pattern and image shows by putting my fingers over my closed eyes and applying gentle, even pressure, squeezing them just a little. I tried it right now, and is still works; I cannot do it for long, for my eyes become uncomfortable after several moments. The shows continue for a few seconds after I re-open my eyes, which is an interesting effect.
I often hallucinate heavily when I hover on the edge of waking/sleeping just after having woken up; I enjoy doing this, and do it often on the weekends when I get to sleep in.
Good fortune,
- Icarus sees some weird s**t...
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Sometimes I can see different shapes and colors. . Most of it is like, geometric looking, blocks, and othe shapes everywhere. It really isint easy to describe. These kind of things usually happen when I am not thinking about something and I just let my mind wander. Other times, I can see things that I saw a few minutes ago, their images still in my mind, or it could be something that I was just ingrossed in (Im typing this now right after playing a compuuter game, and images of the game are flashing before my closed eyes). It won't always work, however: I would need to be in a certain mood and a certain degree of darkness to see the images clearly and vividly. One of my favorite places for viewing this imagery is in a comfortable reclining position in dim light.