In some ways, I think too much. My mind is littered with all kinds of stupid facts about things nobody else cares about. I came to a sad realization about myself yesterday. For all of my abilities, I am socially and in terms of life experience, "The dumb kid in the room." When people talk about everyday, ordinary things, I have nothing to contribute, never having married or had children. I have lost the gains I have made over the past four years, and don't know if I will ever get them back. I have been having dreams of having to "go away" someplace forever. People tell me I'm smart, but I've never amounted to much of anything, ever.