Do you know what you look like?

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I usually look as pissed off as Tony Montana in that abomination known as Scarface...but I'm not.

I've always had this fear.
I as a youth, never knew how to wear my hair.
I've always kept the same clothes,
I've always worne the same tattered shoes.
They call this "poor central coherence;"
Our common maladie, our abstract blues.

I hate what I look like. I try to avoid getting my picture taken. And I dislike watching myself. When I was in college, I was in student government. I was on Television almost everyweek. I tried my hardest not to watch me, my debating, bring up bills, ect. I hated seeing myself on TV. I once was even on regional television too, and people for hundreds of miles saw me on TV. It was kind of odd.

Another time, I picked up a newspaper, and there I was on the front cover of the newspaper, in full cover. It frightened me.

Idaho Aspie

I've no idea either. Most of what I could say is a combination of guesses and random things people have actually said.

Today I was feeling very good looking but not right now that I binged on a lot of junk. Some days I feel I'd rather venture out in some machine like those abyssal submarines and not let anyone see me; in fact, sometimes I like wearing things that hide my looks as much as possible.

Since I don't think people are sincere; I assume everything they say is just what they want me to believe which in turn can only be figured out by knowing their hidden intentions first - while those hidden intentions do have to do with how I am perceived, there's no guarantee that that perception isn't in itself skewed. A tad nebulous. . .

I know exactly what you mean on all points. I never agree with what other people suggest looks good on me, either.

Funny you posted on this. I can remember being in primary school, and being around other children for the first time. They all looked like plastic, or not real to me, I can't really describe it. But I wanted to reach out and touch them to see if they felt like dough, or if they would crumble to pieces. A few weeks ago, as I was looking in the mirror, I was overcome by that same feeling, like I wasn't real, as if I wasn't looking at myself, but a recreation. I never recognize myself in pictures, it's like an alter ego, it isn't me. I have pictures of me on my phone, and I look at them and critique what I see, or at least think I see.

I know I'm funny looking because people have said so. That's as much as I know. My therapist is teaching me how to show emotions, and recognize them in others. It's making me notice faces more.

i don't really understand what i see in the mirror, either, and how it seems that my appearance can change radically in what must be a subjective way. 'cause while i DO look radically different than i did growing up, for the most part my appearance goes a long time without changing. so it can't be that i literally look different.

my parents have always been obsessed about weight so at one point i got really into the numbers of it - pounds, calories, etc, and dropped a lot of weight at once. i was using that to try and find a) control over things that were f****d up at the time and b) it is an objective way of 'grading' appearance, using my parents' favored method of judging physical beauty.

being a way higher weight than normal lately (due to a medicinal catastrophe that wrecked my body), i'm way more likely to be unhappy and confused by what is in the mirror.

I have issues with this too..it is the reason I look in the mirror alot and take pictures of myself...in order to grasp it...but I still don't know...

i'm hawt.

I am fat with grey-brown-black hair and flabs of skin hanging off my face. (If that doesn't make a beautiful mental picture.)

I look like a human version of Sid. :O)

I've been told several times that I look like John Lennon.

Sometimes people say I'm good loking, but I don't trust them. I suspect they are saying it, just to make me feel good. When I look in the mirror, I really can't tell. ???