anbuend wrote:
Yeah. My parents always reprimanded me for "staring" -- and they didn't mean at people, generally, they just thought it made me look weird. They said my brother did it too, they called it "staring at air".
I got known for staring at walls and other blank surfaces when I started changing classes in school, and dealing with it by staring at things that didn't change and losing myself in them or in the colored patterns my retinas put on them. It got to the point where in some places kids would introduce me as "This is Amanda, she stares at walls."
And of course I continued to "stare at air" a lot, which was and remains usually just what happens when I'm not paying attention to (or able to make sense of) visual input.
This whole thing is like you quoted directly from my mind. I tend to do this a lot, and it seems to make NTs really nervous. I also tend to "stare" at someone that I'm paying attention to, and have been told off by my parents for "staring straight at them."
The whole thing about when you're meant to break eye contact is really confusing though. I've never been able to work it out. It always ends up with me blinking to much, or I end up not blinking very often.
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