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Spokane_Girl

26 Apr 2008, 9:23 am

No I don't feel this way but there are things I don't like about myself but doesn't everyone feel that way?



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26 Apr 2008, 9:29 am

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After considerable thought, I am unhappy being Autistic and wish I was not.

It causes me way to many problems and I wish I could be neurotypical.

It causes people to tease me, steal from me, treat me with disrespect. I cannot interact with people normally. I cannot answer phone calls, or make phone calls. I cannot dress normal. I cannot maintain a normal sexual partner, or otherwise friendship with anyone. I cannot pay my bills on time, get a job, keep a job, make a decent amount of money. I have the working memory of a knat. I have a no future, and I am always depressed. I offend people, constantly. I cannot approach people, I cannot start a normal conversation. I cannot do anything like a normal person. 85% of my personal relationships end in near disaster.

I want to be normal. I want to have a life, with a partner, normal thinking, a career, friends, and relatives that don't acknoweledge me only because they feel obligated to do so. I want to be a normal people. I wish I wasn't Autistic. I feel like damaged goods. I feel like an incomplete person.

Anyone else feel this way?



Yep. That's me and later on you'll just say to your self that it can always get worse.



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26 Apr 2008, 10:02 am

I've felt that way before. Especially when I was a kid, I didn't know I was autistic but I did know I wanted someone to come along and replace me with someone who wasn't (what I considered) defective (also, ugly). Life did get better for me, but only long after I gave up hope of it doing so, so I'm not sure what advice to give.


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26 Apr 2008, 10:29 am

IdahoAspie wrote:
After considerable thought, I am unhappy being Autistic and wish I was not.

It causes me way to many problems and I wish I could be neurotypical.

It causes people to tease me, steal from me, treat me with disrespect. I cannot interact with people normally. I cannot answer phone calls, or make phone calls. I cannot dress normal. I cannot maintain a normal sexual partner, or otherwise friendship with anyone. I cannot pay my bills on time, get a job, keep a job, make a decent amount of money. I have the working memory of a knat. I have a no future, and I am always depressed. I offend people, constantly. I cannot approach people, I cannot start a normal conversation. I cannot do anything like a normal person. 85% of my personal relationships end in near disaster.

I want to be normal. I want to have a life, with a partner, normal thinking, a career, friends, and relatives that don't acknoweledge me only because they feel obligated to do so. I want to be a normal people. I wish I wasn't Autistic. I feel like damaged goods. I feel like an incomplete person.

Anyone else feel this way?


There are what, 6 billion people on this planet. You need maybe 5 for a social life. You need successful casual contact with maybe 50 for work. Keep looking, the math is in your favor.



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26 Apr 2008, 10:44 am

I'm sorry you feel this way.I think every autistic feels this way at some point in there life, but the only thing i casn say is that things will get better.


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26 Apr 2008, 11:47 am

You should think of yourself as being in a good company: Mozart, Einstein, Thomas Jefferson just to name some. They were all autistics and you certainly wouldn't say they were incomplete people.



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26 Apr 2008, 11:54 am

To b honest im happy just da way iam being on da spectrum isn't all dat bad my only downside is social interaction but dat is now improve little by little n most NTs said 2 me dat i wish i was like u memorsing road maps n knowing lots of different cities in da world n plus trains aswell. 8)