Does "not fitting in" really get to you?

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No

I'm so busy doing what I do in my inner world that I really don't give it much thought.

It used to bother me that I don't fit in, but not anymore. I like who I am, and I don't have the time or patience for anyone who will not accept me for who I am. I've found over the years that nice people who really are your friends will try to include you on outings; even if they know you're a loner and probably wouldn't enjoy the event, they'll ask you just to be polite. I've always preferred quality over quantity in my friendships anyway. Who needs to be surrounded by a lot of people who don't really care about you?

Oooooh, it used to bother me. Now I own my awkwardness/aloofness/whatever it is. I know it sounds conceited, but I've gotten to the point where if you don't like me or want to try to understand me (which I guess is common) then I have no time for you. It seems to work better; people understand that, or at least they don't question it.

The friends I have had are genuine. I don't usually have the thing that makes the bridge from "acquaintance" to "friend". At least not with other females. Males, sometimes, but then I always lose them when I am dating someone, not because they don't understand the "we're friends" thing, but because it usually causes too much tension with my partner.

But in the day-to-day, it only bothers me when I get into a mood where I'm already feeling sorry for myself.

It used to bother me as I would always think why. Now I know I now think about what they would've done if they DID know ...

Then I just ignore it and what's done is done, no way of changing it, probably defines me as I am now

Being autistic means living a very lonely life.

In the case of my last post "it" refers to anything.

Thoughts about why I did things the way I did, I would now ignore it and carry on.

The whole not fitting in, it bothered me to an extent, that now I choose to ignore and become me. No-one is going to be there for me. So it's about me, if I don't do anything no-one ever will. I have a fear of heights. Generally this fear would create a freeze in the person so they do not move. My way is, if I don't make an attempt, I will remain here and make things worse. Take control of the situation.

Any more clarification needed?

Yes and no. While I sometimes get tired of being lonely and unappriciated, I'm also glad to be seperate from the outside.

Not at all, why would I want to fit in with a bunch of losers. I like that I don't discuss the activities of overs, or hand on the next activity of a certain woman who is only in the news for her behavior because shes rich. I rather be me, then everyone else.

I used to care, and caring made me want to change, which I was unable to do, so I got depressed. Now I just don't care anymore.
The fact that many people dislike me hasn't stopped me from interacting with them. I force myself on them: "This is me. If you don't like me, that's your problem. Deal with it, because I'm here to stay."
I don't win many friends with that approach, but at least I'm happier than I was before. Also, many students respect and admire that I don't care what they think about me.

Always. Since then I've developed the attitude of:
"If someone knows me then they will have an accurate opinion of me and their opinion is relevant. If someone doesn't know me then their opinion is irrelevant (especially if its wrong). And if someone wishes to get to know me then they will be able to see what I am like, and not form a false opinion."
In other words, the only people whose opinion of me matters to me are close friends and family members. Everyone else is pretty much irrelevant.

Fit in in the literal sense? No. I can't be 'normal' (why bother, I'm cool the way I am). I also think I am the real normal anyway...

But I like to be with others.

I enjoy leading people best, probably. But I also enjoy being able to discuss my thoughts with the, listen to how they see the world and what many things they see that I do not and that I can only learn of when I am with other people.

It's like a sick joke that there are thing I cannot learn by being by myself only.

Anyway, I also slowly start to enjoy mindlessly spending time with others.

I found that it's relaxing if I make a few ASD adjustments and also that afterwards, I'm super high on new energy. Ready to focus on new things, can think clearer.

That's a good thing. Without meeting people, I'm often and as in the past low on energy, feel spent and my mind feels tired.

Be better then normal. Be abnormal.