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Morgana
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25 Dec 2008, 10:34 am

I just have a few questions, first:

1) Have you always felt this way? or is this a new feeling of apathy? Or was it always somewhat there, but now it´s worse?

2) Any particular events happen in your life that may have caused it? Sometimes, if you have trouble "feeling your feelings" and/or connecting certain things as being possibilities for the way you´re feeling now, your body (and mind) may just close off and lose energy.

3) Have you ever had a special interest?

In my case, I have felt the way you do at times in my life. Often it happened when I was between interests, so to speak. If I have one obsession, that gives me the desire to live, and I immerse myself in that thing. Having an interest taken away causes me great depression...(for instance, I have directed shows at times, and when this is my interest, my life revolves around that. But when the show is suddenly over, I always go through a depression and am not quite sure what to do to replace that). You may just need to find something that interests you again. I agree with what many others have wrote, try to do things that you enjoy as much as possible.

Sometimes this kind of apathy is a clinical depression, but sometimes it´s not. I notice there are phases in life....as I said, I´ve gone through phases of apathy, then, eventually, was filled with energy and interest again. Often these things happen before times of change; sort of like a "death of the old, to make way for the new". These are cycles of life. When it´s a phase, try to just ride it out and be patient, maybe write your thoughts down, and take care of yourself . But if it´s been an ongoing thing, it may be good to see a professional, if there´s one you can trust.


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25 Dec 2008, 11:37 am

No it's not that I've felt like that always; it's new. And I don't know - maybe it's caused by meds?



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25 Dec 2008, 12:05 pm

ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
No it's not that I've felt like that always; it's new. And I don't know - maybe it's caused by meds?


Yes, I imagine that could be possible.


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26 Dec 2008, 1:27 am

Yeah, this is a big problem. I just recently followed a topic here about procrastination, that's another of my problems, and that certainly don't get better in times of apathy. It's sometimes like I'm in a bad circle. I must be in the right mood to get things done, and if I'm not I don't do it properly, so I tend to wait for a better day. Especially in the winter season, I don't do much other than minding my job. I feel it's getting worse by the years.
I try to get out for a walk with my dog every day, and that helps the condition a bit. Lately I have taken up photography,mostly cause I'm kind of fascinated in technical things. (It's amazing how these things has developed the last few years.) But it's also another reason to get out in nature, that's good for everyone, and can cure mild depressions sometimes. To really get this thing going, I've created an online photho album, and I'm working on a website.
But again, I think there is few other things that helps more and faster than to go out for a walk, that gives the mind impressions, as well as peace.


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26 Dec 2008, 5:55 am

I was just feeling exactly like this until I came across this post. Empty, bleak future, world better off without me, etc. Now I feel slightly better. Thank you.

I hope you feel better soon as well. :flower:


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26 Dec 2008, 6:46 am

ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
Why do I feel so empty? I can't get it. Is this depression? Or lack of motivation? I dont' know.

i feel empty mostly. it is because i do not attach sincere belief to anything i hope to see.
i have never felt depressed as in "sad", but i feel very "blurred" and jaded in my life's goal vision , and unmotivated to try anything new on most days.
i just drift with the current of my stream.
i am older than you. i am 36, and i can say that to drift along an un-navigated stream of laziness, can land you on the shores of interesting discoveries.
discoveries that no one else ever saw.

you can be lazy and colorless because you feel guilt in some way about it, or you can be lazy and colorful because you are not bound by the restraints of friends who intercede and try to steer your thoughts.

i think that if you are going through a flat period, then you should use it as a time of rest rather than a time of angst.

time goes long, and what you discover on your way through your unattached reverie will maybe be of interest to another who is yet to embark on your trip.


ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
I just sit in home for the entire day - doing nothing. All my interests are blurred and blank... my mind is blank. I can not sense anything. No joy or happiness... Not even anxiety or irritation... It's apathy? I don't know. How should I get rid of this pathertic, empty mood? Does any of You feel or ever felt this way? It's horrible.


i like it. i am not stirred to any passionate thought or emotion based on any whim i see.
i am always sterile and clinical, and that alienates me from people, and i am usually at home just thinking quietly.

i do not feel lonely, because company intrudes upon my mind.

realize that you can love yourself very much, and be thankful that you will always be in your own company.

other people do see and want to join in, but i can not understand them much so i shut them out, but you should maybe trust your own mind and use the time to think about life and then, when you are in company, if you utter what you found, then they may be intrigued.

it has happened that way for me, but i do not want their attention.

other "flat" people will identify with you and make it all worthwhile when you find them.

i am tired. end



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26 Dec 2008, 9:18 am

ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
Why do I feel so empty? I can't get it. Is this depression? Or lack of motivation? I dont' know. I just sit in home for the entire day - doing nothing. All my interests are blurred and blank... my mind is blank. I can not sense anything. No joy or happiness... Not even anxiety or irritation... It's apathy? I don't know. How should I get rid of this pathertic, empty mood? Does any of You feel or ever felt this way? It's horrible.


Sit down and do something that requires concentration. When I find myself "in neutral" I do mathematics problems. In the midst of solving a problem I have no sense of myself. There is only The Problem. When I used to fly gliders, it was the same. While I was aloft, there was only the flying. There was no me.

Best advice. Do something that is mentally (or physically) difficult and you will forget yourself and "the empties".

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26 Dec 2008, 9:22 am

I felt an empty mood on xmas. Everyone was cracking jokes and laughing and I didn't laugh at one of them because I can't concentrate on what people are saying. I would have to ask "can you say that again and again?" Is this typical AS trait because this always happens to me and if I do get it, I usually laugh a minute after everyone else. :(



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26 Dec 2008, 9:35 am

BellaDonna wrote:
I felt an empty mood on xmas. Everyone was cracking jokes and laughing and I didn't laugh at one of them because I can't concentrate on what people are saying. I would have to ask "can you say that again and again?" Is this typical AS trait because this always happens to me and if I do get it, I usually laugh a minute after everyone else. :(



Christmas Blues is very common. There are a lot of suicides around this time of year. It has nothing to do with ASD.

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26 Dec 2008, 10:21 am

whether or not i am "cute" to mankind is moot to me.
if there is a god and he is looking at me, then i know he will find me to be very beautiful.
that may seem so conceited, but i am not afraid to predict that god loves me.



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26 Dec 2008, 11:49 am

Join a hockey club???

For a self dx aspi like me it would be more likely i could construct a space rocket and fly to the moon......

No offence meant.