ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
Why do I feel so empty? I can't get it. Is this depression? Or lack of motivation? I dont' know.
i feel empty mostly. it is because i do not attach sincere belief to anything i hope to see.
i have never felt depressed as in "sad", but i feel very "blurred" and jaded in my life's goal vision , and unmotivated to try anything new on most days.
i just drift with the current of my stream.
i am older than you. i am 36, and i can say that to drift along an un-navigated stream of laziness, can land you on the shores of interesting discoveries.
discoveries that no one else ever saw.
you can be lazy and colorless because you feel guilt in some way about it, or you can be lazy and colorful because you are not bound by the restraints of friends who intercede and try to steer your thoughts.
i think that if you are going through a flat period, then you should use it as a time of rest rather than a time of angst.
time goes long, and what you discover on your way through your unattached reverie will maybe be of interest to another who is yet to embark on your trip.
ReGiFroFoLa wrote:
I just sit in home for the entire day - doing nothing. All my interests are blurred and blank... my mind is blank. I can not sense anything. No joy or happiness... Not even anxiety or irritation... It's apathy? I don't know. How should I get rid of this pathertic, empty mood? Does any of You feel or ever felt this way? It's horrible.
i like it. i am not stirred to any passionate thought or emotion based on any whim i see.
i am always sterile and clinical, and that alienates me from people, and i am usually at home just thinking quietly.
i do not feel lonely, because company intrudes upon my mind.
realize that you can love yourself very much, and be thankful that you will always be in your own company.
other people do see and want to join in, but i can not understand them much so i shut them out, but you should maybe trust your own mind and use the time to think about life and then, when you are in company, if you utter what you found, then they may be intrigued.
it has happened that way for me, but i do not want their attention.
other "flat" people will identify with you and make it all worthwhile when you find them.
i am tired. end