I don't believe I am an aspie... maybe something else.

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whats a mainframe?

Firstly this is my first post so thank you for your time.

My Aspie diagnosis story is no doubt the same as many of the parents here.

My eldest, well above average IQ, impressive math skills, poor memory for "unimportant things" poor understanding of English, teacher suggests he may have a learning disability.

Get the school shrink to run a test, comes back well above average everything.

Shrink wants us to get him checked for AHAD/ADD, Dad (me) starts researching and learns all about the autism spectrum. Dad researches for 48 hours over three days, calling people, going to libraries, speaking with professional. Dad is convinced he knows everything there is to know about the spectrum.

Eldest goes to see podiatrist. Podiatrist thinks it could be ADS/ahad/aniexty disorder.

Dad does more research and finds there is a proven genetic link between ADS father and son. Dad looks at his Dad (whom is a clinical definition of an Aspie).

We go back and see the Podiatrist however it is just me and the doc and I grill him. The doc suggests and "easy out" of putting the eldest (7) on Prozac and Ritalin. <-- not gonna happen.

I challenge the doc with a "So he is a bit withdrawn, he is no different then me when I was that age" - Doc concludes that I most likely have Aspersers.

CLICK......

So things start falling into place.

It explains my school years to a tea bad/inappropriate peer relationships
True lack of empathy for those I am not in direct contact with - I try to care... I just can't.
That being said, I have a very strong sense of social justice even if I can not empathise with the victims.
I think in patterns.. to this day I couldn't tell you why a word is spelt the way it is, it just is.
I can pick up any instrument and play it straight away.
I used to hack mainframes for fun when I was 10 (its just number crunching)
I can research things so much that I become anxious about them.
I really do have an understanding of the world that most don't and I’m not just being an arrogant bastard


What isn't right though with the Diagnosis is that I can read eyes, body language etc.

Maybe I have trained myself too over the years? I am constantly asking "why" .. Why is Bill standing that way, "why is he tapping his pinky against his belt" "what emotion is he conveying"

So, yeah thats me and I suspect my sone.

Either I am an Aspie who learnt over come social blindness or I am not one at all.

Your thoughts?

P.S. I am grammar blind so if something is a little difficult to read please forgive me.

Am I an aspie, if I focus on why you are seeing a "Podiatrist" for these issues?

.. I was diagnosed with Dyslexia when I was 20, again I thought the diagnosis was BS and it was just me being lazy so I try very very hard to get my spelling and grammer correct.

Yes of course I mean pediatrician .. not a foot doctor, in my minds eye I was reading it as if it was correct.... meh I'm sure some of you know what I mean

Seems to be a little interest in me hacking mainframes/servers .. well put it this way, it is not something I do anymore as I am a number cruncher for the Australian government, you will forgive me if I don't go into detail here.

Am I correct in believing that Aspies are natural pattern seekers? Well that is what I do with numbers to create stats when a computer can't.

All this is pretty full on for me, I've always known that emotionally i was a bit odd from others but i learnt to fake it quite nicely - Like other have mentioned I can mimic really well.

This is going to sound a bit pompous but do Aspies have a tendency to distrust authority or think that NT/common men are ignorant of the world around them? If that is the case.. is the Aspie wrong or is there actually something wrong with the sheep?

BTW thank you all for the warm welcome.