Acacia wrote:
Morgana wrote:
I "do rhythms"- almost constantly! How common is this? And does anyone know WHY?
You spoke many of the exact words that I would have used in addressing this topic. I also "do rhythms" all the time... tapping drumming walking etc etc etc, nearly everything I do is paced to never-ending internal patterns of rhythm. I view it as a talent. Inspirational. Whenever I can, I love to channel this unstoppable stream into creating a piece of music.
I believe this is fairly common in people on the spectrum. Just one of the many physical manifestations.
I know why I do it. At least, I think I do. I imagine it can be different for other people, but...
I seem to drum out rhythms like this because it focuses my mind away from distracting thoughts, gives me a way of physically expressing feelings that I may not be able to communicate verbally. It seems to help me deal with anxiety. It is calming, freeing, and often draws my mind into a light peaceful trance, where everything makes sense... guided by the crystalline math of musical patterns.
Thank you for giving me this explanation! It makes sense, I also had the feeling it helped to focus me in some way. I find it very interesting, though. I haven´t really read anything about it in any AS literature. I thought it might be an interesting thing for someone to study. I have been doing these rhythms for so long, and it is so ingrained in me that I do it rather subconsciously; but now that I´m reading about AS, I´m becoming more aware of everything I do, as well as how often I do it. When it happens, I think "there I go again!"
Does anyone know if NTs do this sort of thing too? I´m not talking about following rhythms in music now, I mean doing a stim-like rhythm of one´s own, while talking, listening or going about one´s daily business.
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