LuckyBunny wrote:
I normally have a recipient. Somebody who I am fully aware is not present, but it's more like a practice session for an intended conversation that may never happen. I always walk, however. I don't just sit down somewhere and natter to nobody. It's only when I am walking alone. [...]
There have been a couple of times I almost slipped, though. During a two-way conversation once, one of the topics I'd previously 'discussed' with the person came up. I actually began a sentence 'Remember I said to you...', before remembering that such a memory would not exist, as the prior conversation had never happened.
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~Loving Light~
Thats pretty much it (aside from the singing), a person will represent a problem, and I will be talking it through with them. Like if I have a problem with a car, a mechanic or a guy who is into cars will be who associated with the problem. I know they are not their, I don't even exactly picture them, its like some sort of symbol, also they don't directly ask questions, its as if the instance of the question is there, and then I answer to them. [...]
Or sometimes in a social situation in real life, if someone said alot to me, and I did not respond correctly or if at all, then later I'll just be talking to my self about it and I eventually come up with the right things to say (but its too late). Its just strange that I don't do it on purpose, or directly think about whats happening, it just subconsciously happens. Its not like in the movies where some guy will be standing in the mirror purposely saying out loud different things that he might try to say to a girl, because it just happens for ever under my breath about anything or nothing of my thoughtful choice. Its also interesting that it happens to some people on here, and not others, yet we have the same condition, manifested in different ways? Like there are people who think visually, musically, etc. For me it may be some sort of verbal thought process, I don't know.
I'm thinking about this quite deeply. Perhaps it is actually some sort of release. I can't really speak for anyone but myself, but I'm thinking what if it is a way to express what I am not expressing in two-way conversation?
A way of resolving the conflict between what I want to tell someone and what I actually do tell them. I still get to say my piece, even if it's not directly to the person I want to say it to. [...]
26 Feb 2009, 3:30 am
