sbwilson wrote:
stonemask wrote:
For me I think the one that makes my parents the most mad would have to be the fact that. I refuse to hold small children or even be around them. Older children aren't too bad if they are behaving. I think it is partly a sensory issue but beyond that I just don't like kids. And considering the fact that most every other member of my family loves children I'm definitely the odd man out.
I do whatever I can to avoid them as well. What parts make you think it's sensory? For me, I feel that it's usually a social awkwardness, I always feel as if someone will think I'm doing something wrong, and I just don't know what to say to kids, I certainly have a hard time "cooing" over babies. When my son was born, this problem didn't seem to be an issue. I was so fascinated with him. I'd snuggle with him, play with him, feed, nurture & enjoy him ....which is probably what made it so hard when he started to pull away.
Well for me at least it's that ungodly high pitched scream that so many children seem to have and the distinctive smells they have. Nothing gives me a headache faster than that. I hadn't considered the social issues. I shut down when i am around young children and I'm not around them much at all so i don't have a lot of experiences to analyze. So i guess i tend to focus on the noise and smells that they produce. now that i think about it the social anxiety does make more sense. jeez I am usually better at self analyzing than that
. I'll have to consider that from now on.
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