Anyone content with being themselves?

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For a while, I was very uncomfortable with who I was. My life has been a roller-coaster for the last couple of years. Some of it, I admit, was of my own making. Aspie or no, it happened. Looking back on it, I have a better understanding of why I did some of the things i did since I started reading up on AS - and I accept that my condition is a part of my being for life. The negative aspects of my condition are something that will never truly be eliminated. It does not mean I cannot take steps to minimize their impact on my life and well-being where possible.

This will likely involve some merging of "tried-and-true" methods along with "original thinking" to create a solution that works for me. We on the Spectrum have challenges which I will dare say are unique to us. But we also can see a greater sense of accomplishment from our achievements when we do get over those hurdles. The application of our gifts granted by our condition will often be what helps us make that jump - if we use them.

Knowing all this has given me some ideas for self-improvement - some of which I have already taken without realizing it until I really thought about it. They have helped make me a better person. I have a long way to go in some respects, but I'm getting there I think.

So I am content with being myself? Yes and no. Some things I like about myself, others not so much. But I am a heck of a lot more optimistic I'll get to where I really want to be before I leave this life.

Perception is reality - and that is why I'm trying really hard to look at the good in all this.

I'm content with who I am, wish someone else felt that way about me too.

Mostly content. I know there's lots I can learn, though. I don't want to change the fundamental me, the personality and the skill set and the stuff I was born with; but to improve and to learn and to try to match this ideal me I've got in my head... that, I want.

i'm getting there...slowly.

I am content with myself, except for a few things. I'm very unorganised at the moment. My room is a mess. It takes me awhile to get anything done. I need to work on a few things.

I am deliciously content; not with being myself, but in who I am becoming.

Am no longer apathetic!

For some reason I differ from others in this thread in that getting my diagnosis has not made me more eccentric but less so. Recognising my imperfections has given me direction to improve and make a life out of myself DESPITE my difficulties. Whereas before I struggled to hide them, getting distracted by trying to fit in. Now I realise I am on the same track as everyone else: imperfect, struggling, with identifiable difficulties just like the next NT. Am understanding better what I have to do to achieve things, instead of trying, failing, feeling bad about it and letting the world whirl past.

Being given my diagnosis has given me a goal to work towards, instead of before, where I floundered in my own uncertain, confused self-pity.

Im content with being myself though other people dislike it and even have to make it there buisness that i am not there ideal of normal what ever that is.
People would leave someone having a heart attack in the street just to fit in with the crowd a crowd they don't even know. If a few go over then they all start going over blocking services that could do something.

I enjoy being by myself because i like my own company, i talk to myself.

I've spent my whole life trying to understand why I'm so different from the average person, but not because I wanted to change myself and be like them. I always assumed that they were the ones who had something wrong with them. I didn't know about ADD, giftedness, or Asperger's, but my differences are who I am, and I've always fought to protect that, not change it.

I am happy with my self and do not want to be NT. When I found out that I had Asperger I felt relieved because there is a reason why I am weird.

I like being different. It makes life interesting.

I hated feeling different for a long time. Fortunately, I discovered music, and as a musician, feel as if I can get away with many of my eccentricities because of my chosen path. If nothing else, I'll deadpan about being "wired funny" or "a social spaz", people laugh it off, and we all get on with our lives.
Now if only I can find a job and move out of my parents' house...they're the ones with whom I'm having the most difficulties.
Also, having a few friends IRL with AS themselves, I tend to feel right at home when I'm with them.
Once I'm living on my own again, I'll truly feel content with myself.

I would, actually, like to change myself. I'm fairly happy with how I am now, but I could be better, I think. I don't think about it negatively, however. I'm not trying to stamp out my AS, or demonise it. I just want to get over some of the things that are a problem for me. I'll always be different, never quite part of normal society. But I want to try and not be a complete outcast by the time I'm living independently.

I don't want to be anyone else then I am today, although I constantly feel that I want to be better as a person, so I want to evolve, not to change (although evolving involves change, it goes slower). The thought of getting inside a process where I would need to force myself to change just makes me feel very angry. I tend to avoid things which would force me to change who I am.

I'm always interested to explore myself, not to change myself.

Writing always works like a kind of therapy for myself.

i am becoming more content with myself and coming to terms with the fact that my life is a stream of never ending embarrassments and humiliations;