22 Mar 2009, 10:11 pm
curiosityofoldcrows wrote:
LabPet wrote:
That's quite a lot in a post, but 'hi.'
Are you asking for advice? As in, Asperger's diagnosis and where to get this if indicated? Probably only you can know and if you need/want a diagnosis then there ought to be a psychologist in your area to formally do this and the process is extensive/expensive. Self-diagnosis can be iffy. If that's your question_unsure.
But welcome, relatively new member!
Are you asking for advice? As in, Asperger's diagnosis and where to get this if indicated? Probably only you can know and if you need/want a diagnosis then there ought to be a psychologist in your area to formally do this and the process is extensive/expensive. Self-diagnosis can be iffy. If that's your question_unsure.
But welcome, relatively new member!
Erh. Yes, sorry that was sort of my question and I didn't even say it in my 1000+ words post.
Oh, no apologies necessary - I can understand your predicament. Just know that any online test is not a formal diagnosis and isn't recognized as such (ie: ADA, or by legal definition). For some, informal is sufficient. But for further needs, got to do it 'the hard way!'
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22 Mar 2009, 11:18 pm
22 Mar 2009, 11:49 pm
curiosityofoldcrows wrote:
HI, I don't even know if this is allowed on this part of the forum but I'll ask anyway. I need help determining if I may have AS or not, or maybe if it's even a possibility.
Warning: THIS IS VERY LONG and possibly very boring.
I repeat myself a lot, and it frustrates me when other people do, I am very forgetful though. So I am sorry if I repeat myself in this a lot.
My thoughts run my life. I have an array of thoughts throwing themselves at me and it's just hard to focus on anything else. I spend a lot of time inside my head and daydream constantly.
I've always have peculiar interest. Now, they don't seem in any way weird to me but I always get told I have unhealthy attachments and people give me a 'look'.
It's a look I've come to recognize because it's been pretty much given to me all my life. It's a mixture of disinterest and annoyance and pity.
I talk about music a lot and I try not to because I know that no one really cares and I know this because, well, when someone tells me about something I usually don't care that much either.
I've always been an "I" or "Me" person. But, I love helping people and people love talking to me, which isn't always I good thing and I'm a great listener because I am really good at pretending to care. Believe me I know how horrible that sounds, and it's not something I am particularly proud of.
I easily become obsessed about things, but they all don't last long, some things last months and years other last a few days.
A lot of my times I don't know what to do with myself and I'm just awkward in social situations. So I am very anti-social and keep to my self and my laptop in my room, I don't even like eating, most of the time, in front of people. I really don't like interacting with people my age or any age at all and I don't like touching people. I'm weird about hugs; I give them to my family (if I must) and my baby cousins only.
The touching thing is really unfortunate since I've always had this desire to become a cosmetologist. But the thoughts of having to interact with people daily make me very uncomfortable. It's true that I don't like people outside my family very much, and even my family gets annoying.
I get extremely hostile when I'm interrupted while doing one of my hobbies. And things in my day have to go a certain way or I get really upset.
I've been told I am very cold, rude, negative, and overly sarcastic and think in logic too much. But sometimes I am very emotional. I love to laugh, a lot and get excited easily. I get told that I laugh at inappropriate times.
I've been addicted to caffeine for the past two years as it makes me 'a different person'. I am a lot more expressive and happy but also a lot more anxious when I take it.
I've been told I am very smart but I don't exactly consider myself smart. Bright perhaps but not smart, I tend to do things with out thinking.
I often fall and bump into walls. I've always been a clumsy person, I often feel like parts of my body are missing a certain connection to my brain.
I have been told that I really creative and that I do fairly believe, I spend almost all my time Writing, Drawing, Making things and Learning.
I love teaching myself things but I'm not very good at it. Like the piano, which I started to teach myself about a year ago, I suck epically a reading music but I can mimic tutorials fairly well (with practice).
I don't like watching TV and if I do I usually watch cartoons. I do like watching movies, though. But particularly Disney movies and musicals.
I have a lot of self doubt and I think it has a lot to do with having been (and still being) told that I am too honest and blunt to the point of down right rude. I apologize a lot and most of the time it's not exactly sincere since I have no clue what I'm apologizing for. I do know how to be polite.
I have also been told I am too naive. I don't get that feeling 'everyone's out to screw me over' but I get taken advantage of a lot. Therefore I don't exactly get close to people.
I avoid eye contact a lot of the times when I speak to some one and often get my words in a jumble and have to take a moment to gather my thoughts before speaking again.
A few things I've read about Aspies I don't identify with very much, and that's why I have my doubts.
Like, about the vast amounts of pets; I don't have pets and I don't exactly have the desire to be a pet owner.
Maybe a dog but I am not sure since I don't like animals all that much. But I am a vegetarian though, so I guess I like them enough.
Also about the dates and math interest; I am terrible with dates and abstract math. Basic math has never been a problem for me but everything else seems to be too much.
I do have a knack for remembering useless information, like lyrics, some facts, and movie and literature quotes. I love quotes
And patterns do fascinate me. As do words.
My nephew shows some signs of Autism and some of the things he does don't seem weird at all to me. Like if his food breaks he won't eat it and that he has to have the same foods night after night, I'm the same way.
I have OCD and ADD, and I think I may have borderline personality disorder and I have episodes of severe depression.
Now, I don't know if I have AS but I've had a suspicion that I maybe on the spectrum for mild AS.
I have no medical insurance so, I can't go see a psychologist or psychiatrist about this either. It'd just me nice to know there is a reason as to why I feel like I'm so different to everyone else.
Additional details; I'm 20 years old and female and I've taken a few "AQ"s quizzes and the average score is 39-44.
Warning: THIS IS VERY LONG and possibly very boring.
I repeat myself a lot, and it frustrates me when other people do, I am very forgetful though. So I am sorry if I repeat myself in this a lot.
My thoughts run my life. I have an array of thoughts throwing themselves at me and it's just hard to focus on anything else. I spend a lot of time inside my head and daydream constantly.
I've always have peculiar interest. Now, they don't seem in any way weird to me but I always get told I have unhealthy attachments and people give me a 'look'.
It's a look I've come to recognize because it's been pretty much given to me all my life. It's a mixture of disinterest and annoyance and pity.
I talk about music a lot and I try not to because I know that no one really cares and I know this because, well, when someone tells me about something I usually don't care that much either.
I've always been an "I" or "Me" person. But, I love helping people and people love talking to me, which isn't always I good thing and I'm a great listener because I am really good at pretending to care. Believe me I know how horrible that sounds, and it's not something I am particularly proud of.
I easily become obsessed about things, but they all don't last long, some things last months and years other last a few days.
A lot of my times I don't know what to do with myself and I'm just awkward in social situations. So I am very anti-social and keep to my self and my laptop in my room, I don't even like eating, most of the time, in front of people. I really don't like interacting with people my age or any age at all and I don't like touching people. I'm weird about hugs; I give them to my family (if I must) and my baby cousins only.
The touching thing is really unfortunate since I've always had this desire to become a cosmetologist. But the thoughts of having to interact with people daily make me very uncomfortable. It's true that I don't like people outside my family very much, and even my family gets annoying.
I get extremely hostile when I'm interrupted while doing one of my hobbies. And things in my day have to go a certain way or I get really upset.
I've been told I am very cold, rude, negative, and overly sarcastic and think in logic too much. But sometimes I am very emotional. I love to laugh, a lot and get excited easily. I get told that I laugh at inappropriate times.
I've been addicted to caffeine for the past two years as it makes me 'a different person'. I am a lot more expressive and happy but also a lot more anxious when I take it.
I've been told I am very smart but I don't exactly consider myself smart. Bright perhaps but not smart, I tend to do things with out thinking.
I often fall and bump into walls. I've always been a clumsy person, I often feel like parts of my body are missing a certain connection to my brain.
I have been told that I really creative and that I do fairly believe, I spend almost all my time Writing, Drawing, Making things and Learning.
I love teaching myself things but I'm not very good at it. Like the piano, which I started to teach myself about a year ago, I suck epically a reading music but I can mimic tutorials fairly well (with practice).
I don't like watching TV and if I do I usually watch cartoons. I do like watching movies, though. But particularly Disney movies and musicals.
I have a lot of self doubt and I think it has a lot to do with having been (and still being) told that I am too honest and blunt to the point of down right rude. I apologize a lot and most of the time it's not exactly sincere since I have no clue what I'm apologizing for. I do know how to be polite.
I have also been told I am too naive. I don't get that feeling 'everyone's out to screw me over' but I get taken advantage of a lot. Therefore I don't exactly get close to people.
I avoid eye contact a lot of the times when I speak to some one and often get my words in a jumble and have to take a moment to gather my thoughts before speaking again.
A few things I've read about Aspies I don't identify with very much, and that's why I have my doubts.
Like, about the vast amounts of pets; I don't have pets and I don't exactly have the desire to be a pet owner.
Maybe a dog but I am not sure since I don't like animals all that much. But I am a vegetarian though, so I guess I like them enough.
Also about the dates and math interest; I am terrible with dates and abstract math. Basic math has never been a problem for me but everything else seems to be too much.
I do have a knack for remembering useless information, like lyrics, some facts, and movie and literature quotes. I love quotes
And patterns do fascinate me. As do words.My nephew shows some signs of Autism and some of the things he does don't seem weird at all to me. Like if his food breaks he won't eat it and that he has to have the same foods night after night, I'm the same way.
I have OCD and ADD, and I think I may have borderline personality disorder and I have episodes of severe depression.
Now, I don't know if I have AS but I've had a suspicion that I maybe on the spectrum for mild AS.
I have no medical insurance so, I can't go see a psychologist or psychiatrist about this either. It'd just me nice to know there is a reason as to why I feel like I'm so different to everyone else.
Additional details; I'm 20 years old and female and I've taken a few "AQ"s quizzes and the average score is 39-44.
You DO list quite a few things that could be AS. BTW AS DOES have OCD and ADD like symptoms. Some MAY even say BPD! And it CAN lead to depression! I was diagnosed ADD, had CLEAR OCD symptoms(some would say I still do, if they saw EVERYTHING)! I ALSO had depression for most of my life. BTW I am NOT interested in dates. My math is OK, but not great.
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23 Mar 2009, 3:29 am
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23 Mar 2009, 3:42 am
CanyonWind wrote:
I can't tell you what's best for you because you got a brain same as me. Just a few thoughts:
Getting an Asperger's diagnosis isn't like going to the emergency room to find out whether your ankle is broken or just sprained. If you're wondering about your ankle, they can take an X-ray and find out with no ambiguity. Psych types are often wrong.
If you are an aspie, there ain't a damn thing they can do about it except tell you they think you're an aspie.
Aspies aren't all math geniuses. Not everybody who does track is a high jumper. Aspie style obsessive interests can involve anything imaginable.
A lot of what you described sounds aspie. You might want to try assuming you're an aspie, learning all you can about it, being skeptical, because you'll find a lot of contradictions in what you read, looking closely at your own life and deciding how well it fits.
Getting an Asperger's diagnosis isn't like going to the emergency room to find out whether your ankle is broken or just sprained. If you're wondering about your ankle, they can take an X-ray and find out with no ambiguity. Psych types are often wrong.
If you are an aspie, there ain't a damn thing they can do about it except tell you they think you're an aspie.
Aspies aren't all math geniuses. Not everybody who does track is a high jumper. Aspie style obsessive interests can involve anything imaginable.
A lot of what you described sounds aspie. You might want to try assuming you're an aspie, learning all you can about it, being skeptical, because you'll find a lot of contradictions in what you read, looking closely at your own life and deciding how well it fits.
Thank you.
And I pretty much figured there isn't much they can do about it, but I think it's nice not to be in the dark about it.
So... it looks like research for me!
