Cruel(lest) ways you've been rejected?

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I've had so many rejections, it's kind of hard to say which was the cruelest...

In the recent past, my latest "best friend" was a girl I was friends with for two years. During that time she did lots of s**t that wasn't nice to me, but she seemed more reliable and predictable than most, and she did seem to really want to be my friend. I had to leave town to move in with some family because I couldn't find a job and could no longer afford to live by myself, and I told her this about a month before I went. She knew exactly what date I planned to leave, because she'd told me she would give me her old ipod (she'd just been given a new one) on the day I left, as she had to get all of her files off it first. We planned to go out my last night in town to our favorite bar. Right before we went she asked me if it was alright to meet up with a guy she'd been seeing for a few weeks, and I said that was fine. This guy was actually dating another girl, and they were all having some kind of threesome. To make a long story short I was ignored all night long, aside from a short period when a friend of this guy I'd never met before decided to tell me about how I was boring and sexually repressed. We went back to my friend's apartment (this was normal for us as we lived in the same complex), and I waited for the guy and his girlfriend to leave so that I could have a bit of final time to say goodbye to my best friend. They didn't, and it became kind of awkward. Finally I said, "so whats up guys, what are we going to do?", and the guy looked at me and said, "what are we going to do? well, i'm going to have sex with these ladies, and you're going to go home". I got up and walked out. I had no response. I felt so stupid, for so many reasons. For not seeing that no one had wanted me around all night anyway. For not seeing that what I thought was a celebration of my last night was just me being invited as an afterthought. For not realizing that someone I'd stood up for and tried to protect for two years had no intention of doing the same for me.

I didn't contact her again, and it was a year before she contacted me. She apologized for not being supportive of me when I was having difficulties, but she never once mentioned that particular incident. She married that guy. Recently she wrote me to ask me if she'd given me her old ipod, because she knew she'd meant to but she wasn't sure if she had. It was all the more a reminder that I am a social freak that I remember so clearly why she never gave me her ipod and she has no clue. She chose getting laid over spending a final night with a good friend she might never see again, and how can I blame her? that's the normal thing to do.

Also still fresh and stinging - My college friends had a reunion at the house of one guy who'd just moved to my town, about a year or two after we'd graduated (before I had to move due to lack of work). I found out only after one guy who was genuinely nice called to ask why I'd not shown up for the first day. When I met them for dinner on the second day I was pretty much ignored, but that same nice guy invited me to go rafting with them the following day, and I said great, just call me and let me know when and where to meet you. No one ever called. I wasn't surprised, as they "forgot" to invite me most of the time in college too. At least this time I was aware enough not to inundate them with unreturned calls.

Things like this are why I don't really have any friends anymore. People just don't like me. It's hard to see why I should continue to try to be liked when they just don't like me and I continue to be hurt. I am not a likable human being, and I'm fine with that. Although I do wish people would just be honest with me and not try to "be nice". The kind of being nice where you try to pretend that you like someone even when you actually hate them is, truthfully, NOT nice. Eh, whatever.

I'd also like to change "...kinda funny, but..." to "maybe slightly funny if someone on TV did it, but actually really freakin' harsh".

Maybe nobody have interst in reading this, I just saw a chance to spit it out...

A day a few years ago I saw the chance of my life to get to know other people with Aspergers Syndrome and to have some fun. It was a friendly outdoor meeting in spring that was announced as "come as yourself, we are all odd"

There was one girl there who I had met before so I kinda followed her around. I thought that I could trust her and thought she would help me around to get into the group. She in her turn was very social and knew everyone else in the group and I was really really uncertain of beeing there. I thought she was okey as we had met a few times before.

At one moment the group stopped at a place. I wanted to look closer to a shop or something. The girl promised to wait for me outside. As I have all my life felt myself unimportant to the people in my company I was very very affraid of beeing forgotten. As I never had any close friends nobody really had paid attention to my presence and therefore it hasnt really matters to people if I was with them or not. Of course I felt the same here and I had tried to make this clear to this girl. I wanted to make sure all the time that she would wait for me and she said yes she will.

So when I came out then both the group and the girl where gone. As I had no mobilephone I couldnt call her to ask what direction they went. So there my nightmare came true. I was standing there alone and forgotten, just as in my childhood. One of my biggest fear in beeing abandoned had come true. Later on the girl said she thought I already went with the group and that she had forgotten about me and discovered it too late.

That was the worst rejection experience ever. I really felt as nobody to them. Since then I havent got to do with anybody who has Aspergers again as I was so hurt in my heart.

To approach this forum now is my first renewing attempts to approach people of "my own kind" again after many years....and I cant say Im less affraid today... I tried to post in the "Hi Im new forums" but nobody replied me there, so I dont have much hope I wouldnt be forgotten here too...