Today I was in the swimming pool behind my parents' apartment building. I was near the edge of the pool when the lifeguard, from her stand roughly five feet up from the ground called to me, "Miss?"
I looked up at her, and she said, "Could you get me that water bottle by you?"
I think I said, "Sure," and I picked up the water bottle. She reached down for it from her stand, her hand still several feet from where I was. I reached my arm up as high as it would go from where I was, but I saw (as I pretty much already knew), that I didn't come even remotely close to reaching.
Confused and flustered, I asked, "Um, how am I supposed to get it to you?"
She looked at me like I'd just sprouted three additional heads, or had perhaps asked the 42nd dumbest question in the history of Life, the Universe and Everything. She told me, in a tone that suggested that it was the most obvious course of action ever, "Just throw it."
This was problematic for me, as I've never managed to learn to throw or catch, just as I've never managed to learn to ride a bike, operate a can opener, knit, sew, cut on a straight line, or tie shoelaces the normal way. Thanks to years of summer camp, I am a reasonably functional swimmer. Thanks to my education and the field I'm in, I know very well that throwing and catching a ball is a skill that's normally learned in preschool. I'm thirty-one years old, and I still can't do it.
I tried anyway, in spite of my inability coupled with how flustered I was at being put on the spot. Naturally, it landed on the ground, a few feet from where I was at the edge of the pool, then it rolled under her lifeguard stand.
I apologized, looking at the water bottle on the ground instead of at her. At that point, the lifeguard seemed to have that "a-ha" moment I've seen far too many times -- the moment when she realized she was dealing with a speshul snowflake, and gave up on me as a lost cause. She shook her head in resignation, then said, "It's okay, just leave it."
I suppose that would most accurately be described as an ASD/ dyspraxia moment, as those two factors conspired to bring me this spectacular moment of humiliation.
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"And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad./ The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."