Self diagnosed people here don't have aspergers

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lol, yeah, my avatar's been kinda givin me the creeps-at first I was thinking, wow, that looks kind of neat. Now I look at it and I'm like "do you have any idea how UNCOMFORTABLE that would be???"

I dunno what to change it to yet though

Silly me. I didn't even notice the zipper on the eye till Xenon mentioned the avatar being disturbing. Otherwise, it's lovely.

lol, getting on that one lookin up avatars as we speak

I didn't mind it until I was gone for the weekend, since I came back (this morning) every time I look at it, it makes my eyes itch.

Hey, don't change the avatar just for me.

nah, if it's disturbing 2 people, that's enough reason to look into other options. When MY OWN EYES are hurting because of it, it's a MUST, lol.

lol, sad thing is... I don't even trust my gp. I do trust this psych a bit though-I go to him through a college thing, a community psychology program. So every time we meet, it's recorded, then other people can view it, and point out things he missed, or he can review it and listen better to it than being in the room at times maybe. Then, there's a supervisor on top of it too, so between all the people that review this thing, he can get way more information collectively than just sitting in the room with me I'd think.

mine is very comfortable to talk to about most things, I'm always uncomfortable because he'll be trying to ask questions and I can't seem to shut up about whatever I was talking about before. But first impressions.... He just kind of lets me run the show. Every time I go in there I have something new I want to talk about, so he drops whatever he's asking about from the week before, etc., easily. He doesn't seem to mind it or anything, and I know he wants to be super cautious about it because he has so many people to talk to.

I guess I don't necessarily trust him so much, but I want to be able to clear up communication probs in my house/relationship a bit, and have no other options-can't afford any others and medicaid here pffft, lol, so I'm stuck. I either go in and talk about stuff and accept what he says or I don't do anything at all.

I figure with that many people overviewing it-at least 5 people, someone's bound to catch something, someone else might make a connection between 2 things. I hate the idea of someone picking me apart and all, but this is just causing enough problems in the house to where I need it. I don't have much of a choice when it comes to what is best for my kiddos.

I grew up with people saying stuff like 'you have to know how to speak Tyler' and stuff like that. I can't tell the you the vast amout of analytical judgments I've made about myself over the years trying to figuare out why I am the way I am. When I found AS every single one them was referenced. I certainly don't lack social skills (except on my bad days. Does everyone with AS have there good days, there bad days, or immediate jump between the two states?) but as Xenon said I have no idea what's going on in other's heads. I'm empathetic but I never know what to be empathetic about if they don't tell me. Half of the time I can understand where they're coming from and feel for them. The other half of the time I don't see what the big deal is or can't see how much something is really bothering them.

Anyways, back on topic

While talking about AS to other's, they insist on fully relating to everything I say and makes me doubt it. That's not everybody though. My closest friends weren't the least bit surprised. I forgot to mention to my bandmate that AS was a part of the autistic spectrum so I didn't really get any reaction from him. I couldn't figuare out why he was blowing off my concerns. About a week later he asked if it was at all connected to autism. Then I saw the light flick on for him. Now he understands.

Should I get diagnosed? I'm not sure. I don't want to be told I'm normal because I know I'm not and it will drive me crazy to have to go back to the constant analyzing of everyone of my actions and everything that happens to me trying to figuare it out or rise above it. It's nice to have some understanding of myself with AS.

I think I'm going to try to get an assessment and kind of "push" it along, lol. My therapist is being slow-well, it's only been 6 visits, but I hate waiting to find out either way. At least if we do an assessment, he can look at it a bit clearer, ya know? Rather than asking all of these pointless questions and trying to use examples that obviously are not working with me.

Unusual interests, both in intensity and type

Sorry to bump up an old thread my NT Buddie did a little research on AS his words

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The *ing arrogance that exists exists in the medical profession who is to say what is "unusual" or "age appropriate." he made me now I in agreement.

My "unusual" AS hobbies from my childhood are now firmly entrenched in the main stream eg video gaming, electronic/dance music.