millie wrote:
it was a nice finish to my day. I enjoyed reading the list. i was not being sarcastic. The list made me chuckle with identification.
I also read greentea and sunshower's posts and really needed to know this evening, that others experience things in the same way as i do.
Sometimes I cannot really sense any of you there. I know enough banter to get by, but i never feel connected to anyone - ever, really.
I do get lonely. I am one of those people with an ASD who does get lonely - prefers to be alone - but does get lonely and does not even bother with daily connection with people face to face because it is too hard and confusing. I feel like crap and I do find it hard to go on, sometimes. oh well.
Yeah, me too. I do love being isolated (sometimes I go through periods of extreme extroversion and socializing, but to me it's more like a job I enjoy; but never a natural state, and I can't maintain it indefinitely), but I get lonely. At the moment I'm not too bad simply because I never get *enough* isolation (being a 20 year old who lives between college and home), so I crave it more than company.
Anyway, I can't speak for anyone else on this site obviously (who knows, maybe I'm speaking to a massive room full of computer intelligences?
) but I'm a real person. And I'm certain we'll meet up at some point - we don't live that far away, and we have similar interests. I'll probably come along to one of your art exhibitions/talk/something, I would thoroughly enjoy it (although my painting is currently not happening at the moment due to stress; I can never make art once I'm past a certain stress threshold).
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