I haven't viewed this thread in absolutely ages... Anywho, I can gladly say my representation of friendship/attachment has changed drastically since my reply on page 1. Whether for better or worse, is yet to be seen. Nowadays, much like how I described my "past" in my last post, I find myself getting rather quickly attached to people again. So much so, however, that I find myself incapable of moving outside the "bubble of attachment" and, thus, find it difficult to socialize with others as they are not in "that bubble". Like before, I find myself rarely taking advantage of friends unintentionally in order to "test" their trust - I have little idea why, and find it highly frustrating. My only thought is that my paranoia seems to be the cause of it.