frag wrote:
The same thing happened with my last doc. My current doc knows and even said people don't always express every feeling and you still have to listen to them.
My old doc claimed I had NO depression for those years where I was the most depressed. Actually I was basically non functional. She still claimed I had no signs, and as long as you don't look depressed, you are not. I asked her finally what a depressed person looks like. They are unkept like smelly and messy hair (Sure I've been that but I rather cancel than go outside like that, I still have some pride!), they cry all the time (I rarely cry and never in front of people!) and they answer sluggishly with a delay (I still spoke normally). I could say whatever and she wouldn't listen because I didn't present with the right symptoms. I said I wished I was dead. She laughed and told me not to exaggerate...
I HATE when they can't look more on the inside and actually listen. Especially if they KNOW people have ASD and might not show depression, pain or whatnot on the outside the same as NT. Don't they have any education?
Same with wide questions. I never knew how to answer. I finally learned I refuse to answer and demand they narrow things down to something I can actually answer. Usually I do this nicely. Some people fail to understand what Make it concrete, and Narrow it down, means, though.
Also they should be able to recognize a mixed episode. But I think if they are busy they want everyone out the door that they can pretend is OK.
Actually I've been outright manic when seeing a doc, and the response I got was, Nice you are doing WELL... Another doc said I have never been manic because I never spent all my money.
They shouldn't set up silly rules for the expression of emotional disorders, they should know they can present differently. And foremost, if someone SAYS they are not doing well, they need to fricken LISTEN. People usually don't make those things up.
Yes! Thats it exactly!
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My old doc claimed I had NO depression for those years where I was the most depressed. Actually I was basically non functional. She still claimed I had no signs, and as long as you don't look depressed, you are not. I asked her finally what a depressed person looks like. They are unkept like smelly and messy hair (Sure I've been that but I rather cancel than go outside like that, I still have some pride!), they cry all the time (I rarely cry and never in front of people!) and they answer sluggishly with a delay (I still spoke normally). I could say whatever and she wouldn't listen because I didn't present with the right symptoms. I said I wished I was dead. She laughed and told me not to exaggerate...
thats exactly what happened and exactly what she said, except I have pressured speach (which is a sign of mixed state) but is held against me as a sign I dont have depression.
I really dont know what to do now, I was holding out for that appointment as a last hope.
I shall have to re evaluate everything and decide what to do next, whether to seek other help, get some more self help books or if I need to face up to giving up my children. I just cant carry on as I am.