Asperger's and anorexia?

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Hi I have Autism and struggle with an eating disorder, it's not like I think I look fat, but I have an unhealthy obsession with staying thin and a fear of becoming fat. I try hard to over come it, sometimes eating in large quantities- which usually makes it worse because of the guilt! I do not know if my two conditions are correlated, however I do know that I do not do it in order to fit into any media image. I do not care to conspire to that ! It is purely that I feel the need to be in control and controlling my eating is the easiest way, I suppose it goes deeper than that. I am a perfectionist and easily feel guilty or sorry if I accidentally say something to offend someone. I will get better though

I find my ritualistic eating patterns almost as a kind of therapy. I'm pretty much socially isolated and really hate to travel, but each meal is WONDERFUL when I just have it the way I planned out. I want to branch out, but then I don't....

When I was in the mental hospital they treated me like I was both anorexic and bulimic which was very distressing for me since it wasn't true and it means I was never allowed to get off of close observation.

I don't think I was ever diagnosed but they treated me like that because I wouldn't eat their food because I didn't like eating in front of other people, I didn't like their food, and I was very upset from homesickness. It was my first time away from home. They even weighed me every day and readmitted me once for weighing under 110 pounds. I think it's not that bad for a 14 year old 5'8" tall girl to weigh 110 pounds.

I'm in a starve-binge cycle. I'm looking at the ruins of my kitchen now.
It's sad.

I had Anorexia Nervosa when I was 16-17 years old.

I counted calories (only between 200 and 300 a day) and exercised like crazy. After several months, I lost some hair and had brown rough patches of skin on my arms from malnutrition. At my lowest weight, I got down to between 80 and 85 lbs. but I still saw myself as fat when I would look in the mirror.

I was totally in denial, even after I collapsed while shopping with my mom. My legs just gave out.


At that time, in the early 1980's Anorexia was not well known by the public. Karen Carpenter had it at the same time that I did but she hadn't died yet. Karen (March 2, 1950 – February 4, 1983)


I'm no longer counting calories, but I am aware that I need to lose weight now. I have some concern that when I take the plunge, I may go overboard again....hopefully this time I will lose weight in a healthy way.

I was anorexic once... With a height of 5'6'' I had a weight of about 94 lbs... My mom found out and forced me to the doctor... I was underage so I couldn't say anything... My doctor send me to a psychiatrist and that's actually how I was diagnosed... It was not until last year I finally reached the goal my doctor had set for me (about 130 lbs) and it took me 6 years to reach that...

Yes, I think there is a connection between AS and anorexia... But I also think that with the right treatment and some stubborn-ness you can finally come out on the right side of the anorexia-hell... I know I'm not completely out yet... If my weight increase to more than 130 lbs I freak and don't eat for a couple of days... So I try to have a steady body mass (if that makes any sense)...

I hate that I've had emotional (and psychological) issues with food....

I mean, we need food to live, and so the problem is that it's something to deal with every day. (unless fasting, which I've also done more recently, and successfully I'll add).


I think it can be compared to being an alcoholic or drug addict. But while alcohol and drugs are not always easy to avoid (alcohol is socially prevalent), ED problems are, in a way, more difficult to tackle because we can't get away from the necessity of eating.


I'm not saying alcoholics and drug addicts have an easier time dealing with their addictions - I'm saying that if they can overcome their addictions, the things they were addicted to are just a little bit easier to avoid than food.

Ever since I was little I've suffered from disordered eating patterns, always being very certain about what I would and would not eat, during a rough patch I began binging on junk food and did grow very overweight, eventually (due to health & bulling issues) my mam put me on a diet and it just grew into an obsession I researched every diet I could and before long I was eating less 300cals a day; some days I ate nothing. That was about 3 years ago I'm recovering now but I'm still underweight and almost religious about when I eat and what I eat. I can see a connection in Aspergers and Anorexia because losing weight and becoming "perfect" became an obsession, if I was NT I might not have become so fixated on dieting. I'll admit I now have a morbid fear of becoming fat but that's probably to do with my fixation of making myself perfect.
Logically I can tell there's something wrong with me and what I'm doing is not healthy but I cant stop.