Do your comormids cause you more difficulty then autism?

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This week, a psychologist that I have been seeing for a few months said that I fit all the criteria for generalized anxiety disorder.

My symptoms of AS have faded to the point where I would likely not qualify for a diagnosis any longer...but my anxiety often gets so bad that I isolate myself, go into periods of depression, and make impulsive decisions. It has affected my jobs, social life and schooling. So yes, my co-morbid diagnosis definitely causes me more difficulty.

I have high functioning autism (not Asperger's), GAD (severe) and schizoaffective disorder. Yes, the autism is the least of my concerns (I was a lot more severe as a child and very high functioning autism now) and the severe anxiety and the schizoaffective is the worst. Sometimes the anxiety is the worst but most times its the schizoaffective that is the worst. Each episode gets worse and more so called "bizarre" according to outsiders. This time around I had a serious problem with auditory hallucinations when in previous episodes it was extremely rare just limited to conversations and my name being yelled all the time. This time I heard constant whispering, people yelling kill and I will kill you and general talking in other rooms. It was low level voices. It wasn't loud all the time mainly soft whispering. But my thoughts and I kind of realize this is weird to outsiders. I have insight sometimes but not other times. I won't get into the thoughts here in fear that people will laugh because they are bizarre. Just because something is bizarre doesn't make it untrue. Weird and crazy things happen each day in our lives. Things are connected beyond your comprehension and mind. It is simply impossible to think of how much the universe is connected and how amazing it is. A unusual thing took place today but won't get into it. I was in the mental hospital this month for a week due to the episode. I have a weird presentation of psychosis by the way it acts during the day. Typical psychosis lasts 24/7 but mine had some times during the day that were worse than others. 3-7 pm is absolute hell. It does start slowly after I get up and gradually gets worse until those times and then after 7 it dies down. Its almost like daily psychotic micro episodes. But its daily around the same time each day. I even lose the ability to speak coherently during the bad times. Just gibberish. I am far better right now than a week ago. I am able to enjoy some of my interests including drawing and video games. Before I wasn't able to concentrate for more than a few minutes at most. It still happens a little bit and my blood pressure is affected and my pulse rate spikes. I am talking about sometimes reaching 145 bpm. There is proof that I am experiencing scary thoughts and a scary world around me. Yes, this is far more disabling than the autism by itself. Sometimes the autism gets in the way needing schedules and routine.

My anxiety disorder is worse than my AS disorder. If I didn't have the anxiety disorder, it would take a lot off my shoulders.

Not really... I hate depression and anxiety, but I can't really judge which I hate more between AS, depression, and anxiety. Plus, I thought those could be considered part of the AS, not totally separate.

I'm much the same. My general tension and anger seems to be born out of being too sensitive rather than not sensitive enough. I know as an infant I had severe sensitivity to loud noise to the point where I even dreaded stuff like background elevator music in stores or restaurants. Just existing with such a delicate nervous system may be traumatic over the long term, enough to affect my whole personality and the way I cope with the world. Even today I still notice that general tension but I respond with irritability instead of tears. I also notice that rage has a strong anesthetic quality. I've gotten so angry to the point where I literally don't feel physical pain. It applies emotionally as well as I'd rather feel anger than the pain of severe dysphoria and depression.

I can relate to that. As a child I always had the ability to become hyper-focused with ritualistic play that other children would never enjoy, but at the same time there were a lot of times I felt almost tortured by boredom and yet refused any activity offered and other times couldn't for the life-of-me get started with certain dreaded activities. I think even the early issues with motivation and changing focus sort of foreshadowed the later development of the full-blown existential-crisis type of depression that hit me with full force in my mid-teens.