I feel like a burden :( Do you?

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Well they chose to give birth to you so if they are good parents they should not be bothered by spending money on their child.

I've felt like a burden to my family a lot, because whenever I have a shut down, they need to spend at least two hours with me before I feel better enoughh to talk to them again.

I hate going over to my dad's house, because I have at least one shut down while I'm there, and my dad doesn't even do anything about it (he even causes them sometimes).

When they chose to have me; they were NOT expecting me to cost quite a lot more & be a lot more dependent than other kids. My parents were married, living on their own & had me by the time they were my age which is quite common for most. They were expecting to be done supporting me 4 years after high-school like most other parents. I feel I failed a lot of their expectations & what makes it even worse is that when I had meltdowns; my mom would get so frustrated with me because I was so damned difficult & defiant that she would threaten to put me in military school, send me to juvi, put me up for adoption, or out on the street. She often talked about how she would be so happy when I graduated high-school because her job as a parent would be done. It's NOT that she's a bad parent; she's done a hell of a lot more for me than most parents would but I had lots of anger & other issues from having AS, physical disabilities & other things that few were aware of & NO one understood. I take a very passive approach to life because the more I try & change things; the more I screw up & cause more problems for my family. I can not help but feel like my parents were royally screwed & cheated when they decided to have me. My parents were great parents but I was a horrible kid & son because of what all I was born with. It's not my fault but it freaking sux that my parents have to pay the price because I am defective