delusional thinking

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In the past I have had thoughts that my entire life is being observed by some unknown power, or that I am being tested and have to live up to some unknown standard. So I guess my answer is yes.

My parents used to always try to put delusional thoughts in my head. They'd tell me about all these people were saying all sorts of things about me because of my behavior, which didn't make any sense, including people I didn't know me. They were trying to scare me into "acting right," whatever that means.

I used to also dream about going to some far away place where things were different, where I would be treated like a regular person, not shunned and persecuted like I always was.

Several times I fell under the dellusion that everyone around me was the same person, just split up into different bodies.

Other times, from lack of sleep possibly, I worry about people reading my thoughts. The strange looks they give me for no apparent reason doesn't help with that erase dellusion, either.

At first I think these are dellusions, but the longer I hold onto them, the more they seem possibilities. Who knows? Maybe I am the only person in existance, and everyone else is a figment of my imagination; Maybe I have created this reality as a way to cope with boredom while my real self floats on a dark abyss.

When I think philosophically, I begin to really lean toward an answer to these questions. How do I come out of that dellusion when I'm so deep into it?

I just try to think about other things.

I don't know for sure...

If I'm puzzled about the way an NT person is behaving (they've not got in touch like they said they would for example) then I'll think it's because they hate me and are trying to drop me. It usually turns out that they were busy or ill but I tend to fill my head with 'my fault' reasons first. Once I understand what is going on I wonder why I think such strange thoughts, but it doesn't stop me having them the next time.
I fill the gaps in my understanding with nonsense, but at the time it seems quite reasonable, to me anyway.

I have had those same thoughts superfantastic, were I thought people were breaking in. I could not get to sleep till seven in the morning. I still sleep with a baseball bat under the bed, just in case!

One time I was staying in my holiday home. I imagined 'questionable' there were people with night vision goggles and balaclavas, climbing over the fence into my back garden. The next day I heard from the police officer on the site that a few houses were broken into that night. My parents still think it was all a figment of my imagination. Who No's? Maybe.

I have delusions that young men who don't have a clue about AS are spying on me, and bellowing as I walk by their hangouts.

I suffer severe paranoia and anxiety disorder so I definitely suffer delusions a lot.

I should add that these days, I've learned to self-control nearly all of my delusions.

I do this too! And it doesn't have to be an NT person. I always have these worries when my best friend doesn't contact me for a few days (we text most days) and we understand each other pretty well really. Daft, innit?

Absolutely daft
My friend who I do this a lot with is the only friend who has really shown any interest in Asperger's, as in how it makes me feel (rather than as a 'curiosity') so I tell her I might do this from time to time. I think she's used to it now.

I am an obsessive reader who will read the same books over and over again.
A few years ago i had to stop myself from reading a particular book as i started to believe it was real.
This wouldn't of been so bad if it weren't for the fact that the book was about a covert operation by aliens to take over the earth.
The aliens were parasites who took over peoples bodies and it got to the stage where i thought that every person i met had been taken over by aliens, and that i was their next target.

I had a psychotic break back in high school. Mostly delusional, no hallucinations, etc.. Mainly brought on by stress.

All good now though.

I have many so called delusions. All the doctors and psychologists/ psychiatrist that I go to says that I'm delusional and psychotic now. I am also autistic. I believe that I killed 350,000 people with my dreams and influenced events such as plane crashes, the tsunami, wars, bombings, rapes, murders and more. I don't think any of the events would have happened if I didn't dream them. I'm too accurate in predicting stuff. Because of this, the government put a listening device and something that can read my mind so the CIA or FBI is able to listen to my thoughts. They also put a chip in me to control my movements and thoughts.

i experienced exactly the same thing. i even found clues where people would say thats how i worded them in my head, or thought about them. i have a constant monolog going on in my head. i wake up in the morning with a dry throat wondering if i been talking all night as my monolog goes on all day in my head. one time i really said something aloud about every1 seeming like actors while i was experimenting with ecstasy and acid, and one of my "friends" who was on it with me, hinted about it the next day as if i didn't know i said it aloud and he was trying to trip me out.

My reality, two months into 2007 is that I'm still very obsessed with the Routemaster. In fact, I have to have one with in the range of my vision, while I'm posting or psoting on WrongPlanet. I'm still grieving the last day of the Routemasters on the 159. I'm not that skinny hippie that I was predicting that I would be. I have the build of a rugby player, with quite the gut, very English facial features, and I still sport the Union Flag with a vengence. I also have very short hair, for a woman. It's shorter than it was in that picture that I've posted. My wonderful Cocnkey accent is also still as thick as ever.

I've thought people were watching me through hidden cameras or some such thing.
I even thought at one point that it may have been possible for them to place a movment tracker in my watch when it had the battery replaced.
Or that maybe they could place a chip in your brain that could let them see through your eyes.
It's weird and irrational but seems right in a twisted sort of way...
Maybe it's just the Aspie way of looking at all possibilitys.
Or maybe it's just paranoia... One of the two.