I enjoy being mentally ill!

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I find being in a state of mind like that agonizing, all right- and I HATE it!
When I feel like I'm losing my mind, I am normally in constant prayer about it. THAT is why I'm still alive- constant prayer.

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An Asperger's man who has Autism Spectrum Disorder level 1- mild, with a sprinkling of Synesthesia.

this kinda makes me feel better that people actually enjoy their manic states. i dont really know how i feel about them. i guess its a love hate, it really depends on my mood. if its a vibrant feeling in my head then i love it but that the same time i know that it is unproductive.

No I can't stand it...
I wish I could return to a child when I was not so sick in the head and feel like it's a constant battle with deep chronic depression, social anxiety, and bad thoughts and paranoia. The only cure seems to be alcohol and benzos, for awhile...
I apologize for the negativity of this post I have been really f****d up for a long time and yes I've tried lots of things to reverse it.

And I don't get mania either! Just an intense agitated emotion... lol

What's this? a dozen posters dumbfounded by my thoughts? well that's something to be proud of

I could go on as to why I am suffering yet partially enjoying it, but I suspect you would only think me mad, the sarcasm sensors would be on high alert dear sammicheater.

Perhaps the only answer is that I am into psychological BDSM.
Or I have a rather self destructive need to be distinct
Or I have a fetish for mentally ill people.
Have I made a fool of myself?

I love it for the most part. The inside of my mind is rarely boring. Hypomania in particular is a real trip.
I could do without the anxiety that sometimes results from my erratic imagination, though.

On second thought, maybe I would rather be born "normal", where I'm like everyone else, and people like me and stuff, and I'm living a much better life.

Oh mental illnesses, I love you in a way!

I have an issue with your terminology. I am not mentally and I'm not convinced you are either. I am different. It's a long held NT stereotype that anyone who is not like they are is by default "mentally ill" and in need of treatment. I disagree. I enjoy being different and have no desire to assimilate into the rest of society. Are there people who really are mentally ill? Of course, but I believe that simply being different shouldn't automatically brand someone in the same group as schitzophenics and violently ill criminals.

I am really confused about this post. Perhaps I lack the intellectual ability to understand why someone wants to swan around in their mental health issues?

You can have my schizoaffective, for all I care. I could happily do without it. It's f****d up large parts of my life.

Some people don't take medication for ADD or ADHD because they think these diseases allow them to generate more ideas than a normal mind would.

IMHO, an aspie may not enjoy the things that make NTs look stupid. The other day I was watching Piranha 3D, and the police asked people to get out of the water, and they all laughed and continued drinking beer, and the piranhas ate like half of them. Aspies being socially awkward would find that whole party too crowded to be in, so, my point is, aspies are less likely to participate in events that make people look stupid, like getting drunk at fraternity parties, and yes, aspies are less likely to become victims of prehistory, flying piranhas. Aspies tend to be smarter than NTs, but not always. Aspies can date themselves, so they are not as hassled by dating as NTs are.

But there are, of course, disadvantages behind every mental illness (assuming Asperger is a mental illness, which, I think is not the case). ADD can make you very an inefficient student. Asperger can make you socially awkward and allow people to victimize you, since you may be a loner.

I guess being able to handle a mental illness is the key here.

Do I enjoy having AS and ADHD? Although I've learned various techniques to minimize the problems brought on by AS and ADHD over the years, there are still days where I resent myself for not being more capable. Think of it this way: they wouldn't be called disorders if we could do as well as others while the symptoms were causing the most trouble. Here's another thing: I don't particularly like having to swallow a pill every morning just to be able to sit still and concentrate on what are considered to be "important tasks". Focusing on an activity for more than five minutes seems pretty easy to most NT's, and they don't need meds to do it. Sometimes I feel like meds are a crutch, I guess.