No. Never have been. Thought about it only once. If I hadn't truly THOUGHT about it, I probably would have done it. I didn't though, because it was the thinking that made me realize that suicide is the single most self-centered, selfish act there is. It hurts a lot of people left behind, and dumps all the problems you didn't manage to take care of on them. And if you think you did take care of them all, trust me, you didn't.
Don't bother lecturing me for my view on this point. Like I said, I actually THOUGHT about it. And I got to experience it second hand through someone who thought they had settled all their affairs. It's not possible. There is always a mess left behind, and somebody has to deal with it. I got to be that one. So I realized it by just thinking about it, and chose not to because of thinking about it, then got to live the proof because someone else didn't think enough about others besides their self.
I would never do that to anyone. No one left behind deserves it. You want to know the real irony? The person who did it to me was one of the people I thought of when I decided not to. Nice, huh?
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I'm not likely to be around much longer. As before when I first signed up here years ago, I'm finding that after a long hiatus, and after only a few days back on here, I'm spending way too much time here again already. So I'm requesting my account be locked, banned or whatever. It's just time. Until then, well, I dunno...