fragileclover wrote:
...it's like my tear ducts know I'm upset or emotional before I do.
I know that all to well, my emotion are 100% based on an emulation controlled by Logic. As such I run everything through the emotional emulation process and it tells me what I should be feeling ... in order to appear NT. It makes it very easy to control my emotions and to be completely honest I hardly ever cry. When my grandmother passed away last year. I received a call from my mother telling me she had died. Then my voice told me my emotions before I knew them, because my voice broke several trying to speak during the conversation (I've never done that before). After hangin' up, I cried for 30 seconds and then I was done.
Usually only one thing can bring me to tears. Beauty, but not in the way you might think ... because it's not like, "well the dress my GF wears make her look beautiful". No, it's when people risk their life to save other people (that is the
only instictive emotion I do have). Because it reminds me that it's the most redeeming feature of Homo Sapiens as a species. That s**t is so beautiful. It's human nature to come to other peoples aide in a time of crisis. Just look at how the people of NY acted on 9/11.
My favorite drama series for years has been "
Third Watch", because during the course of following police officers and paramedics ... it just happen so often and then my tearducts will start trying to produce a tear ...
Sweetleaf wrote:
I feel like crying at times, but then I cant.
... but then my emotion emulation kicks in and works overtime to try and kill it. Making my tearduct actually spasm ... which is one of the most unpleasent things I know, because I do really what to cry because of the beauty. But I simply can't ... not even when I want to
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