Sweetleaf wrote:
I am not quite sure how to word the title......but I have kind of this issue and I was wondering if it sounds like an aspergers/autism issue. Anyways sometimes if I experiance sudden painful emotions I kinda get a physical reaction. Like if someone says something really hurtful I get this weird combination of increased heart rate and chest pain and kind of a feeling of being about ready to explode. It is kind of hard to describe but I've never found any information about anything like this.
So I guess I am just wondering if anyone here has experianced anything like what I am talking about........and how you cope with it or what you do about it. I'm kind of sick of it, makes me feel pathetic.
I experienced that when they changed my work environment I was around large loud vibrating machines that made me feel anxiety after I spent three or four years in quiet room by myself. They said if was for safety reasons and it almost killed me LoL. When I was like that the littlist things said to me hurt my feelings or pissed me off I felt like I was either going to cry or to fight. I was like that for a solid year. I spent a lot of time running to the bathroom my co-workers always thought I had a bathroom emergancy. The constant spikes in my already high untreated blood pressure caused damage to my kidneys and enlarged my heart. I ended up in the ICU for five days. I am afraid of starting a new job because I feel the anxiety will hurt my heart again.
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03 Mar 2012, 1:53 am
