FMX wrote:
I don't think I can give a single answer. As a child and teenager I often felt older than my age. Now I still sometimes do, but at other times I feel younger as well. It depends on the situation and the people I'm around.
Yes, when I was a child, I was constantly referred to as an 'old soul' and very mature for my age.
As an adult, however, I definitely feel much, much younger. I think that, growing up, my emotional development was basically on par with my peers, or at the very least, disguised by my more advanced intellectual development, which is why I seemed older than I was. At some point, though, my emotional development hit some glass ceiling, and while I'm still considerably more intelligent than many of the people around me (I don't say this to brag...but the people around me always call out my intelligence, as if it's a negative trait), it's clear that I'm not on par emotionally with my peers. For one, I always say things like "when I'm an adult," completely forgetting that, at age 26, I AM an adult. My two closest friends are just turned 21 and 22, but I always forget that they are younger, because when we hang out, I still feel like the youngest in the bunch. Teenagers intimidate me, and I constantly wonder what they must be thinking of me...so I guess I must still be a teenager emotionally. As a filmmaker, I've written a few screenplays with teen girls as the main character, and I still imagine myself in the roles.
I honestly get deeply depressed any time I remember that I'm 26, and not a teenager. I suddenly feel like my whole life is being wasted. It's a terrible feeling.
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Aspie Quiz: AS - 141/200, NT - 77/200 (Very likely an Aspie)
AQ: 34/50 (Aspie range)
EQ: 32 / SQ: 68 (Extreme Systemizing / AS or HFA)
Diagnosed with AS and Anxiety Disorder - NOS on 03/21/2012