Lockheart wrote:
I believe I have a flat affect. I might be perfectly content, but people will ask me if I feel alright. If they continue to pester me it makes me cranky, which only validates their theory that I'm lying about feeling fine. Unless something intense happens - or it's all about one of my special interests - I don't generally feel emotions very strongly.
I can't get, and don't see the point of getting, emotional over small things. I bought a prepaid phone recently. With these it's luck of the draw what number you get. Mine just happened to be very easy to remember. The salesperson was so excited and expected me to be the same way. I was thinking, "Yeah, great, it's a number. It's a good number, but honestly, does it really deserve that much fanfare?"
In some cases I have learned to "translate" what I'm feeling with appropriate expressions. I'll usually only do this in social interactions that matter because it's tiring to be acting all the time.
That is so similar to me, it kinds of freaks me out.
My family will sometimes ask me what's wrong and keep insisting it's something just because of how my expression is, which if I'm not paying attention tends to do its own thing. Apparently sometimes I get a grumpy look and sometimes I smirk for no reason, not even realizing I do it, and get grilled as to what I'm thinking or feeling at the moment, even when it's something as simple as I'm staring at a commercial on TV and blanking out. I also have this really annoying tick where I kind of chuckle in the back of my throat, which I didn't realize I did until my partner pointed it out to me a few months ago. I apparently do it all the time and sometimes when other people hear it they ask "what's so funny?" The frequency greatly increases if I'm in a nervous situation, so I now find myself concentrating like crazy when I'm in public, like when I'm in line at the grocery store, trying to not make this chuckle in the back of my throat for no reason. Which just makes those situations all the more stressful because I'm never sure if I'm actually succeeding at suppressing it.