Embarrassing Interest/Obsession

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So, what about something like this, say light playful forays to 'dance' it sideways so to speak? Or, maybe the business side, or the merchandising and marketing side.

My sexual interests are against my will and I'd give a lot to make them go away.

My nephew was utterly obsessed with vaccuum cleaners for years (from ages 3-6). He would go to stores and take apart the display units, much to the chagrin of his parents. If he was at someone's house, he'd search for their sweeper until he found one. If he couldn't find one (as was the case with one person who had hardwood floors throughout the entire house), he'd be completely shocked that they didn't have one and ask the person why they didn't have this seemingly commonplace item. Now his obsession is farm equipment/tractors. At 8 years of age, he can point out and tell you what a Bush-Hog, a combine, disk, sprayer, manure spreader, etc. is. He has virtually every one of the ERTL John Deere die-cast models and demands one to stop at the tractor store if they're in that part of the city.

You're not the only one in that regard. I have always been obsessed with this exact thing. I am willing to be that we both know more than any civvie should ever know about weapons systems (at least I was told such by a soldier setting up for a weapons expo -- one where you not only get to see the weapons, but actually get to fire them as well ).



I have a few such photos myself and have them displayed in my study. I have one of a child, an emaciated man and a man with some type of condition that led to a deformation of the right half of his body (his right side was taller/longer than his left side). The Oscuro morbid curiosity shop has a great selection on these items if you're ever so lucky as to get a chance to stop in.

I work as a cleaner, so I'm using hoovers and cleaning products for the duration. Too bad I'm not obsessed with that though. It's bus-drivers I'm obsessed with, so even when I'm doing my cleaning job, I am constantly thinking about the bus-drivers that I'm missing. Too bad the cleaning job isn't out of town so I could get on my favourite bus to get to work.

So what do you do if you have an obssession that you dont want thats too odd to list here? And what if you cant indulge it enough to get rid of it?

Many of my fixations run towards the morbid.

Nothing kills a conversation quicker than a lecture on corpse decay.

I'm interested in disasters, man made or natural. In particular I am interested in the Chernobyl disaster. A lot of people think it is morbid but I find it fascinating.

As for whether this is an AS/autistic thing let me tell you about my old housemates:

C liked tractors, farm equipment and lawn mowers. He taught me every brand of tractor, went on trips to tractor shops and stood for hours watching combine harvesters at work.

P liked DVDs and Blu-rays (first one then the other) although films in general was his interest. He could tell you what films were coming out at the cinema when, when they were getting released on DVD/blu-ray and if you mentioned a date he would say '[insert film] is coming out on that day'

J was interested in Computers. I didn't see him much but he collected loads of bits of computers.

*sigh* I miss my old housemates...

Let's see:

- Lots of music which would clearly be defined as "girly"
- Astronomy (not so hot to most people)
- Technology (not so hot to most people)
- Fashion (automatically being presumed 'gay' since I am a man)
- Not being into sports (also automatically being presumed 'gay' since I am a man)
- Obscure music that is actually too new (people just like simple mainstream stuff)
- Independent films (same as the music)

Pretty much most all of my 'special interests' are not something I like talking about to most people.

On the sexual side of life . . . I like the topic of erotic spanking. And I like themes of dominance and submission, more so written erotica than film.

And for years and years I felt very guilty about this, because it is directly contrary to many of my most important ethical beliefs. Now, I kind of think of it as ballast. For example, I can see workplace bullying as silly, as stupid and beside the point. If we're going to do S&M, we might as well do good S&M with the ping ponging communication, that kind of thing.

Maybe the answer to the OP's obsession, if she doesn't really want it, is to do a lot of vacuuming for a while.


That was what fascinated me about your interest. I have had an interest like that - a massive crush on a particular celebrity. That's the sort of thing I just don't do, I'm not into fandom or anything like it. I finally decided it was an animus projection, and that got me fascinated with Jungian psychology, which cured the obsession with the celebrity, at least. I've always had an intense interest or other, but that was the first that I really didn't want. It was embarrassing to me to be a past-middle-aged married woman who couldn't read enough about this celebrity! (At least he was close to my age, not some young kid - that would have felt worse.) So I basically kept it a secret.

Maybe there's something archetypal about the workings of a vacuum cleaner that you just need in your life right now, something going on in your psyche, your unconscious, that it represents symbolically. Are you mentally in need of whirling things around in your mind or sucking things in really fast? Who knows? Maybe it's a need to stop and just take things in for a while.

That sounds a little kinky. Believe I woulda kept that tidbit to myself..lol.

That's a really interesting take on it. My username is Whirling Mind because that is how my brain feels, and it's the thing that also gives me sleep problems because my brain won't quiet down. But I don't want it to be like that. It's so easy to feel overloaded because of it.

Maybe the vacuum represents the need for removal of what's in my head! I don't know if I really subscribe to metaphorical meaning in that sense, but at least it distracts me for now.

Well, it's not that unusual. And again, in roundabout fashion, I have let it become a positive.

Yeah gotcha on that. I know some folks who are into the S/M ultra heavy. They go around putting on shows about how to do it right etc. Guess its a fairly wide spread fetish.