I do agree that conformity can be the root of all evil, like money. There is so much competition and high expectations, and if you don't follow this certain trend then you will be ridiculed, not only by some people you know, but more so by strangers in the street. It's as though people are actually interfering, when they should actually butt out and not judge a book by it's cover. People say NTs have all this empathy, but quite sadly the general public actually fail to put themselves into someone's shoes and just choose to judge them instead, making a person feel worthless and ridiculed just because they're not quite meet the pathetic standards everyone are ''supposed'' to have. I am quite appauled by society these days.
But, that doesn't make me want to be NT any less. I suppose all this conformity crap that people center their lives around is OK when you have a brain that's naturally wired this way and so you're just naturally caught up in it too. It's better than being on the outside looking in, feeling rejected and left out. Or at least, if you try to fit in, you have to work so hard at it. If I had my way, I would just be happy having straggly hair down to my breasts, with the front just tucked behind my ears all day, and wearing no make-up, except when I felt like it. I know I can still do that, but I used to just be a plain-Jane and I began to feel unconfident and depressed, and everyone was telling me that getting my hair styled and wearing a bit of make-up would make a difference, and yes it has a little. But it's keeping it up that's an issue for me, since I suffer with executive dysfunction, and I'd much rather have an extra hour in bed rather than having to get up earlier just to sit in front of the mirror carefully applying make-up all over my face and styling all my hair. I have my hair styled to an extent where it looks nice enough, but not ''over the top'' and not too much to maintain. And I just wear lipstick, and I should invest in some foundation too, since my face always looks pale and loads of spots under the skin show up in the sunlight. I think putting on a bit of foundation would put a bit of colour to my face, but it's getting myself into the habit of it that is sometimes the problem.
God, I hate having AS!
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