seaturtleisland wrote:
I don't feel disorientated I feel exposed. I feel like the person I'm making eye contact with can see right through me and know things about me that I would rather keep secret. They say the eyes are the windows to the soul which is why I feel the need to avoid eye contact. I feel like I have more privacy if I don't make eye contact with others.
This. I feel as if they're piercing through me to the very depths of my soul, as if some piece of armour has been physically removed, leaving me extremely vulnerable. I hate it. I can fake it when listening to people (watching their mouths, foreheads, etc.) but not when speaking. I come across as extremely autistic then; tilting my head at odd angles as I stare at the ceiling or the walls or the floor.
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Diagnosed with ASD level 1 on the 10th of April, 2014
Rediagnosed with ASD level 2 on the 4th of May, 2019
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