whirlingmind wrote:
I get this really weird feeling in my brain. Like when I was once asked about empathy and how I would react to a certain situation, and my brain can't compute what it's meant to, even if someone explained to me the correct empathic response to a situation my brain blocks off and cannot register the explanation.
This is quite hard to describe, it's NOT a psychological thing, it feels physical. It's like there is a literal blockage in my brain and it can't work out the thing (whether it be an empathy-related thing or another thing that we have trouble with as Aspies). I can literally feel this sensation like the thought process won't travel through because there is no linkage or the linkage is insufficient or damaged. And the more I try the more it won't, it's like a brain shutdown in that area or a no-man's land, and it can actually make me feel really panicky as I can't do it and it's like someone has put a wall there and I can't get over it. I am awful at maths, and I can get this feeling if I try to understand a mathematical concept too. It's an unpleasant feeling, to the point that I then consciously shut down the thought process about the subject matter because I can't bear the feeling of it not going through.
Am I a freak of nature or does anyone else get this?
That's an interesting explanation of feeling a physical blockage. When it comes to sympathy I have none at all so I can relate to this. In the past I always faked it to appear normal but since learning about autism I am comfortable with not being able to feel anything. It's quite a relief actually since now there is a reason why I can't feel things like other people.
I think that blockages like this have a purpose which is to protect us. There is something behind it which is too painful for you to face right now. Perhaps there was some trauma or damage done when younger that is permanent, because of a bad situation you were in. In any case there is no need to be alarmed about it. I would suggest you work on coming to terms with this so you don't feel so upset about it. Nobody can legitimately judge you for being unable to feel or understand something.
09 Jul 2013, 5:44 am
