13 Dec 2013, 10:32 pm
13 Dec 2013, 10:38 pm
vickygleitz wrote:
I am 60ish, When I find an empty playground I will jump on a swing on a swingset, eyes facing the sun if possible.Then,as I swing, I scrunch my eyelids shut to varying degrees and get excited about all the kaleidioscope action in frontof me.
People are constantly commenting on how I am able to play pretend games with little children , being the princess, the car, the dinosaur, the "crawling hand," whatever. They say that I look like I am actually having fun. I am.
As far as trust goes, I guess I'm like a little kid, [at least until VERY recently] or maybe more like a "born-again naivete virgin." I trust, too easily.Because of that I tend to feel pain and DEEPLY. Then I swear that I am done trusting, that I have learned my lesson finally. Then something happens and I am once again trusting everyone, and getting hurt again.
I do not believe in magic. I do not believe in miracles or fairies, that when I feed or give a coat or money to the homeless that will be just what they need to turn life around. I do not believe that my yorkie-poo understands every word I say. I do not believe that when I pick up a picture of my late husband or dad and start speaking that they hear me, or that wishing upon a star has any value. And yet, as strongly as I don't believe in any of these things, I believe in them all. I'm guessing that is child-like.
When I sit on a park bench and one of my grandchildren and other children are digging in the sand, someone often comments that it would be interesting to be able to see what the kids are seeing. I politely say yes, but inside I wonder why they can't see the treasure chest filled with gold coins, diamond tiaras, emeralds, rubys and candy [lots and lots of candy] and possibly even a new treasure map leading them to another adventure.
I can totally relate to the trust thing. And I wish there was a playground nearby with swings. I have not seen any swing sets at all in our area but reading your post reminded me of how much I loved to swing. And I do the kaleidoscope thing with the sun and my eyes too. I love doing that.
People are constantly commenting on how I am able to play pretend games with little children , being the princess, the car, the dinosaur, the "crawling hand," whatever. They say that I look like I am actually having fun. I am.
As far as trust goes, I guess I'm like a little kid, [at least until VERY recently] or maybe more like a "born-again naivete virgin." I trust, too easily.Because of that I tend to feel pain and DEEPLY. Then I swear that I am done trusting, that I have learned my lesson finally. Then something happens and I am once again trusting everyone, and getting hurt again.
I do not believe in magic. I do not believe in miracles or fairies, that when I feed or give a coat or money to the homeless that will be just what they need to turn life around. I do not believe that my yorkie-poo understands every word I say. I do not believe that when I pick up a picture of my late husband or dad and start speaking that they hear me, or that wishing upon a star has any value. And yet, as strongly as I don't believe in any of these things, I believe in them all. I'm guessing that is child-like.
When I sit on a park bench and one of my grandchildren and other children are digging in the sand, someone often comments that it would be interesting to be able to see what the kids are seeing. I politely say yes, but inside I wonder why they can't see the treasure chest filled with gold coins, diamond tiaras, emeralds, rubys and candy [lots and lots of candy] and possibly even a new treasure map leading them to another adventure.
But trust me, your dog understands you. I know that for a fact.
I brought some of my stuffies to the ski shop today when I was getting my boots adjusted because they wanted to see the new line of skis and boots. I hid them discreetly in a pouch purse so that I would not look weird to other customers and took them into the boot room and showed them the new ski boots. That was really fun.
13 Dec 2013, 10:42 pm
13 Dec 2013, 10:44 pm
14 Dec 2013, 12:37 am
I don't feel like a child, but for some reason everyone treats me like one (with the nice exception of my gf and a few others), constantly ignoring what I have to say, not taking me seriously to any degree, talking down to me... it's honestly infuriating to be 28 and spoken to and regarded as a 9 year old, to top it off, when I get angry at such treatment, they continues degrading me by saying things like "stomp your feet a bit harder" 
. And then people wonder why I'm generally p***ed at most people. *points at example* duh?
14 Dec 2013, 12:46 am
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14 Dec 2013, 10:00 am
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I see even those younger than me as my senior. I look up at everyone, I'm actually tallish but my perceptions are 10 inches lower.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.
Aww. I'm sure you'll mature some day. :3 Meanwhile, you can enjoy the childhood that most adults seem to miss!
I don't perceive you as childish by the way. I've met people who act way more child-like than you do. You seem fairly appropriate really.
14 Dec 2013, 10:49 am
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14 Dec 2013, 12:38 pm
blitzkrieg wrote:
MONKEY wrote:
I see even those younger than me as my senior. I look up at everyone, I'm actually tallish but my perceptions are 10 inches lower.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.
Aww. I'm sure you'll mature some day. :3 Meanwhile, you can enjoy the childhood that most adults seem to miss!
I don't perceive you as childish by the way. I've met people who act way more child-like than you do. You seem fairly appropriate really.
I think I'm more mature when in a good mood.
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14 Dec 2013, 1:18 pm
MONKEY wrote:
blitzkrieg wrote:
MONKEY wrote:
I see even those younger than me as my senior. I look up at everyone, I'm actually tallish but my perceptions are 10 inches lower.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.
Aww. I'm sure you'll mature some day. :3 Meanwhile, you can enjoy the childhood that most adults seem to miss!
I don't perceive you as childish by the way. I've met people who act way more child-like than you do. You seem fairly appropriate really.
I think I'm more mature when in a good mood.
Haha. So when you're in a bad mood, the pouts and foot stamping appear?
14 Dec 2013, 1:51 pm
14 Dec 2013, 2:03 pm
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14 Dec 2013, 3:09 pm
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Haha. So when you're in a bad mood, the pouts and foot stamping appear?
Yep so I wouldn't upset me if I were you.
14 Dec 2013, 3:19 pm
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14 Dec 2013, 3:28 pm
14 Dec 2013, 3:43 pm
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Yep. Feeling young is a symptom of Asperger's.
Hey, I've been working with a therapist, and he has told me that an adult is someone who takes "ownership" of his life, who does not somehow feel that there will be some person or institution that will be there to "protect" him.
I'm thinking that I can actually do that, but that I'll still feel like a child. I just wonder what others of you might respond to that....
Hey, I've been working with a therapist, and he has told me that an adult is someone who takes "ownership" of his life, who does not somehow feel that there will be some person or institution that will be there to "protect" him.
I'm thinking that I can actually do that, but that I'll still feel like a child. I just wonder what others of you might respond to that....
My emotional perceptions are those of a child. I doubt I'll ever be able to take ownership of my life - feels a bit late now
I still regard "real" people as "grown ups".
I have a recently acquired "aspie support worker" and when he asked me the other day what he could do for me I replied: "I need looking after".
