An Enquiry Into The Judge Rotenberg Center & ABA Therapy
What I think when I see twenty bazillion posts about the JRC on my dash
This was posted on Tumblr by an autistic woman. She makes a very, very good point: If we focus on the JRC and think we've won if we shut them down, we'll be ignoring other places where people are being hurt just as much and more. What's more, you don't have to physically hurt someone to hurt them. Those of you who've been bullied or abused at home, you probably remember the non-physical aspects of it... the fear, the loss of freedom, having your identity denied. I much prefer a physical attack to that; at least it's honest. At least bruises heal. People can be abused in the nicest-looking environments. One of the nicest-looking places I have ever lived at was also one of the places where I was subjected to a totalitarian environment, one I still have nightmares about. And no one ever even touched me there.
So, yeah, it's more complex than just stopping one type of torture at one particular place. In order to solve the problem, we have to change our society at a basic level. We have to make it known that disabled people are equals. Equal rights, equal value. People don't get to have power over us just because we're disabled, and people don't get to say they're treating us well simply because they don't physically abuse us.
Yeah, like I said on page one:
Merry Christmas to all.
Verdandi, I know you are trying the best that you can to think things through and maybe even help people, so here is a Christmas gift especially for you:
Callista made a very good point, as did you, but the problem with repeating the same material verbatim is that it does not involve fresh thinking, so each time you repeat verbatim, it just weakens the affect of that material.
Even if you said the same thing but in different words, at least you would be needing to use your thinker a bit more actively in order to do that, and maybe along the way something new would occur to you:
Hey Ho!
http://www.alfiekohn.org/teaching/pdf/P ... ewards.pdf
This is a link to an interview with Alfie Kohn the author of a book, Punishment By Reward
reward. If I tell one of my staff members that he or she did a terrific job on something,
am I giving a reward at that point?
That's an interesting question, and I wish more educators would ask it,
regardless of what the answer turns out to be..
You will find out what he had to say when you read the interview.
This is meant to be used as a learning tool in conjunction with understanding the pros and cons of the aba approach to behavior modification. I did have in my library a copy of this book which I recently discarded--forget why, but he makes some valuable points, so I wish I had kept it. Actually it could still be in some thrift shop donation boxes in a storage area.
This material on this thread is intended to be used as a comprehensive learning tool. Whether you agree or disagree with me is beside the point, but if you are not learning something new from participating, then please desist from posting here.
I mentioned on another thread that I am against electric shocks being given in order to modify people's behavior, and I still am, but the problem is that as an adult I would much prefer being given the kind of electric shocks they are giving at that center rather than receiving psychiatric medication. I do not see people on WP protesting that, though maybe I have missed it, or even really protesting these shock treatments. Both seem a bad way to have ones behavior modified, but there is no way I would choose medication over shocks. And many parents who have sent their children to the Judge Rotenberg Center and subsequently defended it apparently felt and feel this way. Ignorant people misused the treatment and eventually it will probably be outlawed, but psychiatric medication which is far more damaging to the human body and making people into vegetables in a sense, damaging their livers and creating in some permanent tremors, will not be outlawed. People give all kinds of sh*t to children, even very young children, and that is apparently fine and no one here apparently find that horrifying. At least I have seen no messages or threads about this in the ten months I have been here..
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I feel so horrible and helpless. For 30 years lawyers, governments, numerous journalists, disability organisations have tried to shut this torture chamber down and have been utterly squashed by these master manipulators.
Some here have said they lack information. This has been posted before and is a lengthy read.
http://www.motherjones.com/politics/200 ... hool-shock
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Some here have said they lack information. This has been posted before and is a lengthy read.
http://www.motherjones.com/politics/200 ... hool-shock
Hi, you are welcome to post here and to give opinions contrary to my own, but this thread is for enquiry, not just repetition. I have already posted the link to the Mother Jone's article in the introduction to this thread and said it is required reading (and note that this article is from seven years ago and many conditions at this center have changed.). Here is a link to the introduction to this thread. Please read the whole thing. http://www.wrongplanet.net/postp5808268.html#5808268. And below the link I have quoted from part of it. I do admit enquiry can be difficult. I have not participated on this thread recently. because I have been engaged in other activities on WP which has kind of spread my participation a little thin,, but the main reason is it is a very difficult topic to go into from the perspective of enquiry with which I am trying to approach.
http://www.motherjones.com/politics/200 ... hool-shock
http://www.asparenting.com/2012/02/19/a ... -analysis/
Edited to add a third link, and also, these links are meant to be used as learning tools on this thread. The first link takes you to a short introduction video produced by the Rottenberg Center. Please watch this and read the entire six page Mother Jones Article before participating here. The third link is optional.
the intent of this thread is to discuss in depth this center from the perspective of-how we personally do or can relate to it from an interactive angle--how it affects our responses and how our own responses affect do or do not affect what is happening there.
It is also about psychological spin and bias.
I just found spent a couple of hours today looking over material on their website, and it looks to me like this center will never be s**t down and probably should not be. Re the use of adversives such as shock, they have 118 letters from parents supporting its use. One of them is quoted below...but there is no more shock given to new students. It is banned in the state of Massachusetts, so the battle against the use of such treatment has effectively been won, which may be too bad, as it was probably saving people from being drugged, restrained and confined to jails and mental institutions for the rest of their lives or injuring themselves and others, which imo is probably worse. But don't get too caught up in this, as nothing I saw or do will have effect at all on whether this kind of treatment is banned, which as I have said, it already effectively is.The most you can hope to do, which I think you almost surely would be unable to do, judging at least from your 'participation' here ojn this thread, is stop this treatment on the few people at that center who are already receiving it by court order.
Below,is the first of 118 letters on their website (118 is a lot!), and the only one I have read so far.. Again, bear in mind that no new students there will be receiving this treatment, as it is banned.
Again, the main purpose of this thread is to use this material regarding the Judge Rotenberg Center as as learning tool in order for us to be able to understand more about ourselves.
My daughter is 18 years old with a diagnosis of Mild Mental Retardation, Schizoaffective Disorder, Reactive Attachment Disorder and Pervasive Developmental Disorder. She has been hospitalized six times in the past 8 years and been discharged with a different diagnosis each time.
We adopted our daughter at eleven months. She spent most of her first year in an orphanage with little stimulation and was delayed in everyway.
At eighteen months, we decided to have her attend a small family daycare for three hours a week for socialization, as she was our only child. After a few months, she was asked to leave because she was too aggressive with the other children.
At age two, she was enrolled in Early Intervention and then attended to preschool with an aide. At age 3 ½ she began psychotherapy in an effort to help with her extremely aggressive, impulsive and controlling behaviors. The psychologist diagnosed her with Reactive Attachment disorder. The next 6 ½ years, with the help from this psychologist, she grew in her capacity to allow herself to be nurtured and soothed. She continued her aggression and her low tolerance for frustration, however. When she was five, she was referred to a psychiatrist and began taking medication.
From age six to ten, she attended a day school for special needs children. As she became older and bigger, safety to herself and others became a serious problem. Her behaviors interfered with her academics. She was separated from the other children and working one-on-one with an aide. The school demanded that she start an old antipsychotic medication (Haldol, I believe) as other medication trials had not been successful. We refused. Instead, we decided to slowly wean her off the medicine she was on (at that time, Klonopin, Clozapine and Depakote) as we saw no benefit. She spent little time at school. These were difficult and scary times. Many an hour was spent restraining our daughter. Unfortunately, we never quite got her off the medications. She became so aggressive that she needed to be hospitalized. Once hospitalized, the school told us she could not return.
At age 10, she began her first residential treatment program in Cape Cod. She started to make progress until she turned 14. She became more aggressive and difficult to manage. She spent many hours a day in their timeout room. The discussion of increasing and adding new medications was being discussed. Medications were changed once again. She was back in the hospital six months later.
At age 14, she transferred to another residential program in the Berkshires. Nine months later she was hospitalized for a third time. When admitted, she was on Haloperilol, Clozapine, Cogentin, Fluoxetine, Topirimate and Propranolol. She was stabilized at the hospital and returned to school with only Clozapine and Clonazepam. The aggression started back up a week later and three weeks later she was re-hospitalized.
At age 16, we transferred her to yet another residential program, in Waltham, MA (recommended by the psychiatric hospital). In the next year, the school’s psychiatrist recommended medication changes as her aggression accelerated. She was hospitalized twice that year. I wouldn’t give my permission to change her medication after she came out of the hospital the second time. She was asked to leave shortly thereafter, because her aggression was too severe.
With the help from our school district, we sent letters to every special needs residential school in the state. The only school willing to try to help our daughter was JRC. My husband and I knew about JRC for years, but did not want to consider it due to our initial concern about aversive therapy. We found our concerns unfounded.
At age 17, she walked through the doors at JRC. For the first seven months, JRC tried a positive treatment program (rewards for good behavior, etc.) and her aggression continued. She was isolated from the other children both at school and the residence for the safety of everyone.
My daughter was approved for the supplemental aversive treatment in February, 2009. The day before she started this treatment, she had 7 restraints in one day. She hasn’t had one restraint since. She hasn’t had any physical aggression toward others in the past four months. She is finally in a classroom with other children. Since this treatment began, my daughter received her first passing report card. Two weeks ago, she had knee surgery to repair an injury received during a restraint from years ago. She couldn’t have the surgery before because she was too unsafe.
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After reading the second article I started feeling nauseous because it disgusts me so much such a facility is allowed to continue on. I don't think its appropriate to use electrical shocks on kids to control behavior rather then actually help them with their problems. What a disgusting facility. That is all I really have to say on the matter.
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I do think that the existence of places like the JRC--and other places that are just as bad and worse--has an effect even on the lives of autistic people who never have to stay in an institution, or at least never have to stay long-term. The threat of the institution is always there. You always know how precarious your independence and self-determination are. It's there at the back of your mind, just wearing away at you. Your rights aren't guaranteed. Your freedom isn't protected. You're always at risk, and you can never count on protection.
It's like a free black person before slavery was abolished, thinking, are they going to declare me a slave and sell me? It did happen, after all (a Northern free black man told his story of being kidnapped into slavery in "Ten Years a Slave", which I recently read and which is recommended reading for any American history student ever).
Living like that, with the threat always there, can be exhausting. You feel pressured to constantly assert how independent you are. Every time you ask for help, you wonder, is this what's going to make them think that I can't live on my own? And if you have a regression or a depressive episode, or your epilepsy causes brain damage, or you become physically ill--and you can't predict if those things will happen--not only will you be likely to be institutionalized, but once you are, you're going to be at greater risk of mistreatment, neglect, and abuse than neurotypical patients would be. Living on your own becomes a matter of survival, not just preference and ability. People burn out because they can't juggle self-care and work and still stay sane, because they know the alternative is unacceptable. Especially if they're poor--state hospitals, poor-quality care, undereducated and underworked aides. You never know whether you're going to get one of the bad ones. You could get someone who's great and competent and professional, or you could get a sadist. And it's the luck of the draw. You don't even know if you'll be believed if you say you're being mistreated.
Is it any wonder how desperately some of us try to declare ourselves "high-functioning" or "not disabled"? It's survival. And it makes you feel horrible because you know some of your autistic brothers and sisters can't pass as NT if they really need to, and they're even more stuck than you are--they're living the nightmare you dream about every night. Living with that reality, feeling helpless to get them out, means you're affected even when you're not the one who's trapped.
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Good. Who are you, anyway? Your word counts nothing here on this thread unless you put ideas with it. This thread is for enquiry.
Here are149 pictures to look at. Are these disgusting??? just found them by chance earlier today. This slide show takes a while to look through.
http://www.judgerc.com/slideshow.pdf
This is not to say I support this center, though these pictures sure are intriguing.
Actually people who do not know how to think make me feel kind of sick, as they are doing more harm to other people and causing more suffering than anything people at the Judge Rotenberg Center could ever do, not to excuse anything harmful to people that they have done or may be doing.
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I did read the whole article and did read that there are many parents who think they are doing right thing .
If history repeats it itself as it has time and time again the order to stop shocking people will be a temporary "victory". There has been many times over the last 30 years when it seemed they have been stopped or have been close to being stopped. I am going to continue based on my expectation that someway, somehow, somewhere the shock treatments will resume.
These comment is limited to the autistic patients. Shocking patients will work for many in at least in the short term if you define "work" as eradicating "wrong" behavior if you turn the pain levels higher then the sensory pain levels that are at least partly causing the behavior. This begs the questions that were discussed in the article, is there a more "humane" way of getting the same results? Is medications an even more "inhumane" method then shocking is part of that discussion. That would depend in part on the medication, the individual patient.
Is leaving the "wrong" behavior intact more "humane" then torture? Certainly in the so called high functioning cases they are making most of there money off of, no way, no how. This is true for a lot of low if not all "low functioning" patients. There MAY be a case for a patient who is ACTIVELY self harming in a manor that will cause serious injury or threaten life
Now for the question that I believe was not discussed in the article. While shocking them might work what will be the long term result of altering behavior the person is neurologically wired to do. The question eventually goes beyond this center to the ABA methods as a whole. I believe based on the"Autistic burnout/regression" we see now in the future this will will happen sooner and more rapidly. But as we are discussing torture not positive styled ABA. If trained solders often get Posttraumatic stress disorder what will happen to kids in the future is to difficult for me to think about. Especially kids who are already troubled.
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I did not ask if you read the whole article, which I assumed you did. I asked you to read the entire into to this thread.
Now please do that and also look at the pictures in the slideshow, as from those pictures I would be all to glad to send a self injuring and other injuring autistic child of my own there rather than heavily medicate, restrain and institutionalize that child if such were the only alternative, not to imply that these pictures tell the entire story. Also, please read the parent letter I posted. (I'm sure that is the best one as they placed it first in the list of 118:-)
The Mother Jones article is way out of date as these conditions no longer exist at that institution. That was seven years ago and much water has gone under the bridge since them. I realized it was out of date when I put the link to it, but I thought it would be interesting to use as a learning tool, and I do think there was abuse of that shock technique going on at that institution. I do not institution as that or maybe any institution as the application of it is so subjective. In some instances, however, it looks like it could turn a human life around when there are no other alternatives.
Good. Who are you, anyway? Your word counts nothing here on this thread unless you put ideas with it. This thread is for enquiry.
Here are149 pictures to look at. Are these disgusting??? just found them by chance earlier today. This slide show takes a while to look through.
http://www.judgerc.com/slideshow.pdf
This is not to say I support this center, though these pictures sure are intriguing.
Actually people who do not know how to think make me feel kind of sick, as they are doing more harm to other people and causing more suffering than anything people at the Judge Rotenberg Center could ever do, not to excuse anything harmful to people that they have done or may be doing.
I find your tone here highly offensive, littlebee.
Sweetleaf's words are based in thoughts about an emotional reaction. You seem to dismiss them as "non-thinking." I wonder if you could explain your rationale for categorizing thought-based speech and non-thought based speech, or define thinking?
You hyperbole about the degree of suffering at the Judge Rotenberg Center cannot be justified in any quantifiable data. Is it thought based? Or just a feeling that you have and want to share?
As to the parents who think that torturing their children was the right thing, you will also find such testimony from parents from the era of widespread icepick lobotomization. It doesn't make their judgment correct. I can supply testimony from former staff at the JRC that other interventions would likely have been more successful but were never tried. Joining with Callista's analogy, you will find people who argue that slavery was a good thing. Their testimony does not make it so.
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Keep in mind that this is the same person who said that actually talking about torture that JRC inflicts on children is "harmful to humanity." Of course she's going to condemn Sweetleaf and try to tell Sweetleaf how she's supposed to communicate. She's like that with several people.
The pictures JRC uses to promote all the "good" they do for their students aren't going to place the torture front and center. They want to look appealing and effective and like a good place to send one's children, so they're not going to. They are especially aware that their use of electric shocks is widely disparaged and are routinely attacked over it. So again, their own promotional materials are not going to reflect that. A gilded cage is still a cage.
But essentially, I think people should be aware that littlebee doesn't bring anything to discussion. Her rhetorical strategies are aimed at shutting people down and silencing them. This is why she questions Sweetleaf's right to express her own opinion by saying her words count for nothing without ideas, and then goes on to talk about people who "do not know how to think" disgust her.
And that kind of talk actually reminds me of my abusive ex. She would frequently use the notion that someone doesn't "think" as a means to attack others, including myself. However, her definition of someone who didn't think was someone who didn't agree with her. Similarly, littlebee's idea of people who don't think doesn't seem much more complex than that. She frequently labels opinions and arguments she dislikes as "harmful to humanity." or "doing harm to other people" or "causing suffering." These are purely emotive statements with a complete lack of content or substance. They literally mean nothing, but are deployed to create a sense of danger. Most people don't want to harm other people or cause suffering, so words like this are used to discourage lines of discussion that littlebee doesn't like or agree with. There's no inquiry, no ideas, no facts behind such statements, just emotional rejection of particular viewpoints.
The reason this is important to me is that I see littlebee trying to bully people out of participation in discussions, or posting opinions in conflict with littlebee's beliefs. Per another poster she has actually told people to stop posting in threads as well as telling one person that she required them to submit their posts to her for approval before posting them publicly.
And she's tried repeatedly to pathologize my dislike for her rhetorical tactics. The truth is that my dislike for her tactics is informed by my dislike for bullying and abuse, and I do not care to see her given free reign to harass posters who do not go along with her ideas.
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Here's a letter from a survivor of JRC's methods:
http://www.autistichoya.com/2013/01/jud ... etter.html
Dear Ms. Weiss
Hello my name is xxx. I was told you are someone I can talk to in confidence and be safe. I would like to share with you my letter that I wrote to the FDA about life inside JRC and on the GEDs. It was torture being there. And I suffered so much. I am still tormented. Here is my letter of testimony:
My name is xxx and I attended the Judge Rotenberg Center. I am writing to ask you to please reconsider your approval of the GED for use on ANY human being. I was placed on the GED about 2 months after arriving. I started out on the GED-1, and during my last few years I was placed on the GED-4. There are so many of us that were tortured with these devices, this “treatment”. I believe the reason why more ex-students haven’t spoken out is because they are either non-verbal, afraid, or believe that no one cares about us or it will not make a difference. Parents and families that speak and rally in favor of the GED, are not the ones who have to experience it, the pain and anxiety, day after day for years on end.
The GED IS harmful. Even the GED-1. I was burned many times, and I still have scars on my stomach from being repeatedly shocked there, by the FDA approved GED-1. The electrodes had actually burned into my skin. I experienced long term loss of sensation and numbness in my lower left leg, after getting a shock there. I felt searing pain all the way down to the bottom of my foot, and was left with no feeling in my skin from the knee down for about a year. Again, this was with the GED-1. After complaining to JRC nursing about my leg, they told me to tell the Neurologist about it during a follow up visit for a suspected seizure. He asked the staff what that device was on my leg, and they explained to him it was an electrode. After their explanation, the Neurologist said, “Well, I don’t know what that thing is, but it needs to come off.” JRC left the device off my leg for about a year, then decided on their own, without sending me back to a Neurologist, it was ok to put it back. I have seen students with torso electrodes accidentally placed on their spine area, get a shock there and be violently bent backwards.
Also, I would like you to know that the devices have a tendency to malfunction and go off all by themselves. JRC refers to this as a “misapplication”. It happened to me and other students so many times I cannot count. Sometimes the GED’s will just start to go off and shock you by themselves. Other times the staff shock one student but the remote can also set off someone else’s device at the same time. I have also gotten accidentally shocked from staff mixing up my device with another student’s device, shocking me instead. Then there are the times when staff intentionally misuse the GED. I have had a staff who became angry with me and started pushing more than one remote at a time, shocking me several places on my body at once. I have had staff intentionally give me shocks for things I didn’t do in places like the bus where there was no camera to prove it. I have had numerous staff over my years there threaten me with a GED, antagonize me to try and get me to have a behavior they can then shock me for, merely for the sport of it. Staff can and DO use the GED to scare non-verbal students into doing what they want them to by pretending they are about to shock them. Some even laugh when they do this.
Many of the things I and others get shocked for at JRC were very small things. They would often shock us for things simply because staff found them annoying and they would keep writing therapy notes until our psychologist added it to our program. I got shocked for tic like body movements, for which I have no control over, and which don't hurt me or anybody else. I would be shocked for waving my hand in front of my face for more than 5 seconds, for closing my ears with my fingers, which I do when things get too loud, because I cannot tolerate too much noise. I would be shocked for wrapping my foot around the leg of my chair, for tensing up my body or my fingers, and the list goes on and on. There was a period of time where I and many of the other students were getting shocked for having 5 verbal behaviors in an hour. A verbal behavior is a minor behavior like talking to yourself, noises (such as clearing your throat), or talking without permission. Every hour would start a new block. And if you were pinpointed more than 4 times in that hour, on the 5th you would get a shock, and then for EVERY minor verbal behavior after that you would be shocked. If you talked out a 6th time, shock. If you had to go to the bathroom, and you had to go really bad, but you asked more then once, that would be nagging, which is a verbal behavior. And these were the things we were getting shocked for. My program was this way for a while. Some of my verbal behaviors I got pinpointed for were crying, talking to myself (even quietly), noises, laughing, humming, repeating myself and inappropriate tone of voice (which was based on staff's opinion of how my voice should sound). Almost every time I spoke or answered a question, I was pinpointed with these behaviors. My reaction was to stop speaking, but they also made part of my program that if I didn't answer staff in 5 seconds, I would automatically be shocked. I was paralyzed with fear every day. No matter what I did I was doomed. I ask those who read my letter to think to themselves about how often they do some of these things while they are working. Twirl their pens, talk to yourself or think out loud, ask a question to someone nearby, hum a song that's in your head, laugh at something funny in the room. These are things humans do. And they are not harmful. Yet we were being subjected to terrible pain and fear for doing these simple things. One day, out of the blue, the case managers went through the building and scratched off this punishment from all their students recording sheets. They didn't say anything to us about it, just made it like it never happened. Although I can't say for sure, I overheard talk that one of the male students had told his lawyer and family they were shocking him for talking, and that JRC was never supposed to be allowed to do that to us. Whatever the reason, they covered it up fast. And even though they stopped, they still need to be held accountable for all of it. Because it went on for a very long time, and I suffered greatly because of it. People NEED to know these things happened.
There was a time when I was there that I was on the portion program. This is where JRC starves you as a punishment for having a behavior. For example, my first plan was that for every time I had a minor behavior, such as talking to myself, rocking, wiggling my fingers, I would lose a part of my next meal. My meals came to the classroom cut into tiny pieces and divided into portions inside of a little plastic cup. Every time I had one of these little behaviors, I was forced to stand up and throw one cup away. There were many days I would lose most of my meals. And the hungrier I got, the more frantic and restless my body became. This caused me to have more behaviors like tics and rocking, and in turn I would lose more food. My mind clouded and I could no longer concentrate. I would often become so frustrated from this I would end up hurting myself. At the end of the day, at 7pm, I was offered "LOP" (loss of privilege) food. This was made intentionally to be completely unappetizing. It was ice cold, and it was made up of chicken chunks, mash potato, spinach, and then doused with liver powder, then set to sit in the refrigerator for days. The smell alone made me sick. And I never once was able to eat it, no matter how hungry I got.
It was very difficult to sleep at JRC. There are several alarms in the room and over the bed. Every time someone moved in bed it would set a loud alarm off that could be heard throughout the house. Most of us on GED's had to sleep with the devices on. That means locks and straps that get all tangled around you and make it very hard to lay down in a comfortable way. I was very anxious to close my eyes, always fearing a shock for something I might not have even known I did. My fears came true one day, and I was given a GED-4 shock while I was asleep. It was not explained to me why I got this shock. I was terrified and angry. I was crying. I kept asking why? And they kept telling me "No talking out". After a few minutes Monitoring called, and told the staff to shock me again for "Loud, repetitive, disruptive talking out." The next day I asked the supervisor why I had gotten that GED. And she explained that staff had found a small piece of plastic in my self-care box, which contained my shampoo bottles etc, and that they considered this a hidden weapon. I could not believe it. I did not hide anything in my self-care box. I had not done anything wrong. Yet I was shocked for it, and worse off in my sleep. That piece of plastic, of which I was never shown, had probably broken off of one of the plastic containers inside the box. And I was severely punished for this. After this incident I really stopped sleeping. Every time I closed my eyes they would jump open, anticipating that jolt somewhere in my body.
I truly believe that the judges that approve us for the GED have no idea what it really is like. All they have to go on is what JRC claims. The GED does not feel like a “hard pinch” or a “bee sting.” It is a horrible pain that causes your muscles to contract very hard, leaving you sore afterward. I would often have a limp for one or two days after receiving a GED. The devices JRC puts on us are not the same ones they show to the outside world when they let outsiders try the GED. Students wear a different electrode, a long one with 2 metal electrodes that radiate the electricity across a large area.
Besides the physical pain, life with GEDs is a life of constant anxiety. I experienced heart palpitations daily, had a very hard time sleeping and eating, and became rather paranoid, always wondering if I was about to get shocked and constantly alert in all directions. I eventually became very depressed there and contemplated suicide every night. Now, after having been gone almost 4 years, I am still having nightmares and flashbacks during the day, especially when I hear certain noises that remind me of GEDs and JRC.
I want to mention, similar to many other students, I was also tied to the 4-point restraint board and given multiple shocks for a single behavior. And if I screamed out in fear while on the board, I would be shocked for that as well. I was shocked for behaviors I had no control over, such as tensing up and tic-like body movements. We were always having to watch others getting shocked in the room. Hearing others scream, cry, beg to not be shocked. Students would scream “I’m sorry, No, Please!!” all day. I, like other students, would cringe and feel sick and helpless while watching others getting shocked. I was so anxious about getting shocked that I would many times bang my head just to get it over with. The GED often was the cause of my behavior problems. The students that get shocked the most at JRC are non-verbal. So they cannot speak up. I feel that just because we were born different, we are not given the same rights to be protected from tortures like the GED.
We are at the mercy of guardians and judges. When I was brought to court to be approved for the GED, I was not told where we were going or why. I was brought into the courtroom wearing a helmet and restraints on my wrists and ankles. I was not questioned by the judge. All he had to go on was my appearance in those restraints, testimony from JRC officials, and charts of provoked behaviors. These behaviors came from being forced to sit in isolation with a straight upright posture, in the center of a hard restraint board, day after day, week after week, for two months. I received no real help and no socialization. For those two months I was not allowed to sit in a chair, at the classroom or residence. I was to sit on the board. Also, JRC provoked me by not allowing me to shower during those two months. Instead of showers, I was bathed tied to a restraint board, naked, while staff washed me, putting their hands all over me. All in front of cameras, where Monitoring watched, including men. Being tied on a restraint board, naked, with my private areas exposed to the staff in the bathroom and the cameras was the most horrible, vulnerable, frightening experience for me. I would scream out “rape, rape!” And these were recorded as major behaviors for me. When I first arrived at JRC, I was immediately subjected to humiliation and provocation by them forcing me to wear a diaper. I in NO WAY needed or have ever needed a diaper as an adult. I am completely independent in all toilet and hygiene skills. And they knew that. I had NEVER worn a diaper up until that day, except of course when I was a little baby. And that is exactly how they made me feel, like a little baby. I was embarrassed and confused and angry. I took that diaper off constantly. When I would take the diaper off they would mark that down on my chart that they would later show the judge as destructive behavior. I would often get restrained on the 4 point board for taking off the diaper and fighting staff not to make me put it back on. In these ways and more, JRC provoked many behaviors in me that were shown on a chart to the judge. There is no way the judge could know what was provoking my behaviors. JRC told the judges that their program was the only thing that could help me. That theirs is the only last resort treatment.
I was considered a difficult case. I would like you to know that I am doing very well in a new program that is nothing like JRC. I don’t get shocked or put in restraints, and I am given help by staff and doctors that I can talk to. I am not drugged up as JRC claims I would be if I left. JRC made no attempt to understand me. Feelings do not matter to JRC and we were specifically not allowed to express them. I felt like an animal test subject there. My new program does not punish me for my problems, that are the result of having Aspergers Syndrome. I have gotten so much better from getting real help instead of constant punishment and pain.
I ask you to please investigate carefully into the GED. The ones that are actually being used on the students, not the samples JRC provides, as I have experienced them to be extremely manipulative in all things. There are no doctors overseeing us with the GED. Every few years they would drive me to a doctors office near Framingham, Ma, and not tell me why. In his office he would literally walk in, say hi how are you, and before you can answer he has signed their papers and you are shown the door.
I have attached with this email a document I wrote called “The Board” which is about one of JRC’s worst tortures that they used on me and others. I wrote it so that outsiders can feel what we feel, and hopefully to help others understand the agony of GED treatment. I invite you to read it, and I hope it will share a new perspective for you, the perspective of the ones that should matter the most, the human beings on which these devices are being used.
Sincerely,
xxx
By: xxx
December 2012
The most sickening, horrifying experience of my life was being shocked on the restraint board. What is the board? It is a large, door sized contraption made out of hard plastic, with locking restraint cuffs on each corner where your wrists and ankles get locked in. Your body becomes stretched spread eagle style, pinned tight, rendering you completely helpless, combined with an overwhelming feeling of vulnerability. It is a torture that you would expect to see in a horror movie. The kind that makes you cringe and scream while you watch. The kind you cant get out of your head even a after it’s over. Only this was happening for real, to me.
They added the restraint board, which for me was 5 shocks over 10 minutes to my program after a few months, which means getting shocked 5 different times, over a period of 10 minutes for having just one single behavior. If you have just one of those behaviors on your sheet, which can be getting out of your seat without permission (even without doing anything violent), tensing your body, anything they decide to put in your program. A behavior is anything you do that JRC considers a problem. Anything from hitting your head, to talking to yourself, saying a swear word, rocking, even screaming from fear and pain of the shocks, is a "behavior". The staff grab you, put you in restraints, walk or drag you to where the board is kept (usually right in the middle of the classroom with all the other students watching and stepping around you), and than restrain you to the board. Arms and legs locked in. Then the terror starts. You have to wait for it. You never know when it's coming. The staff shocking you usually hides behind a door or desk so you can not see them. JRC lavishes in the element of surprise when shocking us. Then all of a sudden the searing pain and jolt in your arm or leg or stomach, or sometimes even the fingertips or thigh or even bottom of your feet. Whichever part of the body gets shocked, it will travel throughout. If you get shocked in your arm, for example, it is not a "hard pinch" it is a radiating electricity that will travel from your bicep through to your fingertips. Your whole arm jerks against the restraints, causing added pain from your muscles being forced to contract against being tied up. The loud screech of the device goes off with it, and they say, "(name) there is no tensing up". One down, 4 to go. Your heart races immediately, and you sweat profusely. All you want to do is throw up. That ten minutes feels like hours. You try to prepare yourself for the next shock. I keep saying in my head, 4 more, 4 more. Please just finish please. Trying not to scream in fear because i will be shocked for that as well. It comes again without warning, next time maybe in your stomach, the stabbing pain runs from left to right, right to left, across your belly button area. Your stomach heaves in and you lose your breath. More sweat now. Your heart beats faster now than you can feel possible. I start to hope my heart stops. Anything to let me away from this. 3 more. But now it's even harder, I don't feel I can take any more of this torture. Besides the pain, it's the panic and fear in your mind. There were times when I peed on myself. One particular time I was put on the board for hitting my head the night before. They said because the staff did not "follow my program". They put me on the board. They shocked me repeatedly in the stomach. And when they finally got to 5, I thought "it's over". But then they didn't take me off the board. They gave me a 6th, than 7th, than 8th. They kept going. I was so filled with fear, not knowing what was happening or when they would ever stop. I went away in my head. I started floating. I had no more tears left. When they finally stopped after 10, they sent other staff in to "change my batteries". When they lifted the electrodes off of my stomach, it was stuck. They had to pull because it had burned into my skin. I still have those scars on my stomach. When they took the devices off of me to test them, I was still strapped to the board. Every time I heard the noise from the test, I cried and panicked. The staff attempted to comfort me, she whispered to me so they wouldn't hear her, because any kind of comforting is never allowed. I was shocked on the board on many separate occasions. One time for something I never even did.
I lived this. These things happened. These things were done to me and I witnessed them done to many others.
It seems inappropriate to share pretty, staged pictures for the sake of promotion but not to share stories like this one.
I look forward to having the posting of such stories being described as increasing human suffering.
I think that, after reading accounts like that, anyone who still says that this kind of torture could ever be helpful to anyone, even with the worst behavior, the lowest functioning level, and the most extreme situation, is probably either brainwashed, incapable of using logic, being paid to promote the JRC, or deliberately attempting to shut down people who believe that it is wrong to torture the disabled.
I have on occasion talked to the survivors of psychiatric institutions and "troubled teen" programs (and had some hospital time myself). Occasionally, someone will come up who will say that the institution we are talking about is necessary, or saved their life, or is wonderful, or is better than drugs, or is necessary because the situation is so dire. They cannot be reasoned with and they will never admit that the institution is wrong, even when people start talking about torture, child deaths, and sexual abuse taking place at the institution.
Usually, these people are in one of these categories:
1. Survivors of the institution in question, usually those who survived by allying with the staff and participating in torture, who have not yet been able to face the betrayal, helplessness, and torture they themselves experienced. They are not being deceptive; they usually believe truly that the institution has helped them. Some of them are people who have become incapable of living outside an institution. In general, they either become staff themselves or suffer breakdowns and fade from the community as they become unable to take care of themselves and are re-institutionalized. Others, with time and support, will begin to understand how they have been manipulated, and will begin to recover from the after-effects of their institution experience.
2. People who are affiliated with the institution in question. They may be parents who have their children there, and who are being brainwashed themselves in "parent classes", or they may be staff who are paid for "public relations" activity or researchers who are proponents of aversives. They may pose as "graduates" of the program. Their statements are usually partly sincere, partly rationalized as "It's worth a bit of deception because this institution is doing such important work". Some of them eventually realize what they have been doing and how many people they have been hurting. Others do not.
3. Those who harbor prejudice against the disabled. They have dehumanized those who are disabled (or "disabled enough"--i.e., low-functioning, more disabled than themselves) and have mentally categorized these people as being not quite people. This allows them to justify torture to themselves as "necessary" in these "extreme cases". It also allows them to feel better about themselves because it puts them above other people, boosting their own social status by pushing others down as non-human.
4. Sociopathic or sadistic people who derive pleasure from repeatedly invalidating and worsening the trauma experienced by people who have survived institutionalization. These people know exactly what they are doing and generally think it is fun.
I am honestly sick of being told that what the JRC does is okay somehow because it's keeping people off meds or because they're self-injuring or because they're just autistics or "disturbed" or "troubled" or disabled in some way, and it's good for them, somehow, to be constantly hurt and made to feel fear and despair. That opinion is wrong, hurtful, and illogical. Whether the person who is talking about it is brainwashed or just sadistic, that person is wrong and is participating, condoning, and supporting torture.
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Good. Who are you, anyway? Your word counts nothing here on this thread unless you put ideas with it. This thread is for enquiry.
Here are149 pictures to look at. Are these disgusting??? just found them by chance earlier today. This slide show takes a while to look through.
http://www.judgerc.com/slideshow.pdf
This is not to say I support this center, though these pictures sure are intriguing.
Actually people who do not know how to think make me feel kind of sick, as they are doing more harm to other people and causing more suffering than anything people at the Judge Rotenberg Center could ever do, not to excuse anything harmful to people that they have done or may be doing.
Telling people that they do not know how to think is a personal attack, which is against the site rules. Don't.
From the rules:
This includes insinuation, ridicule and personal insults, regardless of whether direct or indirect. Attacking an opinion, belief or philosophy is acceptable, but attacking the person making the comments is not.
In relation to other posts you've made
A. You do not get to dictate to the people the manner in which they must post in threads that you start.
B. You do not get to set prerequisites, such as required reading, as a requirement for posting in threads that you start. You can tell people that they won't properly understand your point unless they read what you put forth, but this site allows people to post (as long as it's within the rules) whatever they want, no matter what they've read or whether you think it's wrong, or emotive, or "not thinking" or whatever.
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On a non-moderatorial note: those pictures are quite clearly advertising. Do you really think that the JRC would advertise itself with pictures of people tortured and traumatised?
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A reminder to everyone, no matter your viewpoint, to keep it civil, and attack ideas, not people.
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Authentic cadence: V-I
Plagal cadence: IV-I
Deceptive cadence: V- ANYTHING BUT I ! !! !
Beethoven cadence: V-I-V-I-V-V-V-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I
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