What do you want out of life?

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I didn know back in school. when they kept asking that stupid question, well what do you wanna be when you grow up. Here is an assignment about what you wanna be when you grow up.

Now im grown up, by age a least, still have no freaking clue.

I take 1 day at a time. Nothing drives me. not money, not fame, nothing. I just like to live 1 day at a time.

What do any of us want? I guess the old American one: life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.

Specifically, now that my mental wounds are healing after a wasted life due to not being diagnosed until that life had already been ruined by AS, I want to recover as many of the things I had or had not gotten yet as possible, while I still have some reasonable time left to enjoy them (I'm a year off 50, so I could still count as "young(ish) and fit" for another 20 years if I am lucky).

Realistically, I want a job (working on gaining new skills), eventually a place of my own again (rented, there'd be no time to start and finish a mortgage unless I ended up on a very good salary after a while), enough disposable income to pursue my hobbies (astronomy is expensive, the rest are relatively cheap) and a partner for lifelong true love (she would have to be AS or eccentric NT; while generally nice people, the vast majority of NT women turn me right off in terms of their emotional behaviour).

Footnote: The partner thing is one of the reasons I joined WP; when I am ready to be back on the market again, it's clear that I am unlikely to meet many single AS women in RL where I live. I am also a member of a UK-specific forum, but we're spread all over the UK and many of the single women there, while nice people when considered as just friends, have all kinds of distrust of or contempt for men or have just given up hope of finding partners. I used to have similar problems about women, so I can see where they are coming from, but it doesn't help the situation. And, incredibly, I have seen more people saying they live near where I do (Suffolk, UK) here on WP than on that UK-specific forum!

A person like a caregiver to be there for me to keep me safe to understand what I'm going to help me recognize my emotions and to let me know what to do when I'm feeling weird sick or upset or I don't know what I'm feeling . To guide me through life and help me become a productive citizen and possibly an advocate . This is more for after my grandmother cannot be my caregiver anymore although I wish she could be forever .Though part of it is right now especially since my grandmother never really get any help in taking care of me.

Happiness of course

For people not to see my disability as an automatic negative or positive thing and to except me for who I am as a person which strengths and weaknesses.

To stop thinking that I'm faking it and letting denial of others get in my head to stop wearing about being autistic or not a functioning levels and just worry about having fun and being me and doing what I want to do in life. And maybe to just forget about my autism and how horrible discriminative and misguided society is and become oblivious and gain my autistic world and visiusation powers if only just for a few days or gain the ability to balance both awareness and obliviouossness/ Innocence .

Also to get a service dog and have a town for all my American girl dolls and other toys in a room or closet and play and maybe make videos with it .