sonataform wrote:
i make this throat noise like I'm clearing my throat...I want to stop it but it's so ...addictive. I have learned to do it when I am on my own (or think I'm on my own)
Hi sonataform,
I do that too. For me it is automatic & I have no control over when I do it. It happens when someone introduces a random thing which distrupts my routine.
I hand flap when another person "throws in" too much chaos. I also pace up and down, and the feeling going on in my head is very simular to the hand-flapping but "down one notch".
I didn't know it until it was brought to my attention, but when I am happily excited I rock. Not a lot, but enough for people that are aware of such behaviour to "spot it".
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We, the people on the Autistic Spectrum have a choice.
We can either try to "fit in" with the rest of society, or we can be so egocentric that we can't be bothered.
I choose the actor. I observe NT's. I listen to their socializing. I practice it, so in social situations I can just emulate/mimic what is expected.
It isn't natural for me, but it enables me to "fit in".
It is VERY tiring and draining, but at least we can appear like them even though it is an act. Like being on the stage.
They can't see it is emulation, and so we are accepted.