Feeling uneasy on WP

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Meaning what I'm going to do after I'm out of school?

The only thing I can see myself doing is write. I don't really like anything else. I'm kind of set up for failure.

You are NOT set up for failure.

When I see the word "failure," I cringe inside.

You have good intelligence.

At your age, people frequently do not know what they want to do in their subsequent lives.

There will always be a need for editors.

But to me that's a waste. Well, not a waste, but I would be a sell-out. If I do something like that, it'll be more like something to fall back on if simply writing novels can't earn me a living, which it very likely won't.

Right....you do have to have something to fall back on. How's it selling out? Writers need editors--editors need writers.

Even Jack Kerouac, who was an extremely instinctual writer, needed an editor. Even he knew he had to cut down the content which he produced on that teletype, while high on benzadrine.

I mean that it kind of sucks all the fun out of it for me. I'm obsessive over spelling errors, but editing isn't a job I would want full-time.

Do you enjoy reading memoirs?

Nope.
(With the exception of Daniel Tammet's Born on a Blue Day. Every time I'm forced to go out in public and pushed into a social situation, that's my go-to book for avoiding socializing. Sometimes I feel like that book is the only thing that really understands me.)

The point of my reading/writing is to escape this reality and leap into a preferable one, therefor I prefer fiction.

There has been a few topics I have created here where I have never got one reply. I often wonder how it's funny that everybody has the same idea about a thread topic and all decide not to reply, even if the thread topic hasn't been mentioned hardly at all before but is something that other Aspies can relate to.

And yet there are other threads that get bumped every now and then that are about 8 pages long and the topic isn't too interesting at all, just a standard question what only requires a few answers then gets solved and it's thread dies off. I don't know if it's the OP keep bumping the same thread for a few years because they are obsessed with it or something, but I know that if I wrote a thread and got obsessed with it and kept bumping it for years after, I bet other members would attack me.

Like in the real world, I have encountered double-standards here. Once when I wrote a thread about a scene in the film ''Hocus Pocus'' being a little freaky to me, I got criticised and someone asked if I was five, but then a few weeks later somebody posted a thread about a Simpsons episode being a little freaky to them and nobody criticised, just agreed and gave dignified replies. Seriously, I don't think I've ever been freaked by a scene on the Simpsons.

It annoys me somewhat, but I understand why a lot of people on here don't directly respond to one another. I'm fairly confident when I talk to people online, with the relative anonymity it brings, but at the same time I probably talk to a lot more people offline than some posters on here as well.

I like how I can be a bit more "blunt" on here than on an NT-dominant forum, but I still try to be at least somewhat tactful. I don't want to come off sounding like 99% of YouTube or 4chan commenters.

I could understand that.

I'm glad you're not Reticent when you are writing!

I know this is not necessarily easy, but one can't let others define or shut you down. Typically the type that do that are just playing little dominance games/bullying to boost their own ego.

What you are is decided by you alone. I know outside circumstances and people can play a part, but they can't literally get your heart, they can't get control of your mind.

You must decide what you feel is right and what you wish to be and in a sense grow yourself from the inside. You will in time get stronger and wiser.

Some people are born with a gift for gab, many are not. But all have potential and likely some strengths. But such things do not really grow, or thrive by themselves. They must be practiced and exercised. Everybody experiences failures. But nothing but failure is not predetermined in anyone's case. Each has a stairway with an unknown number of steps to climb. Failure is just stopping before you reach the top. It might be 100 steps ahead or just 2-3.

I feel like either the messages can be related to really easily or not even at all. It's still good because I know that I relate to other people with autism.

I'm sure there is a bit of an effect with some of the posters who've been here a while and have people who's posts they love or hate or love to hate, but I'd say that's a fairly small factor, the major one being how interesting the thread actually is. Sometimes, that interests comes completely out of left field, like someone making a particularly good joke that others then riff off of, other times it's because the OP was concise and well written and concerns a topic that draws attention. Really though, I wouldn't waste too much thought on it, there is a huge amount of random chance to things as well, such as who's on and when and what topics are trending, everyone bombs threads.

QFT, every one has responsibility for their own words and whilst they are compiling a post they really need to think about the consequences on others of what they write.
the pressure shoudnt be on targets of abuse to comply and ignore it, the pressure shoud be on the people who abuse others.
am sure many people here are aware of the severe cyberbullying had personaly experienced by one member of WP over several years because was unable to communicate it to those around self, finaly ended up detained for four months in a intelectual disability acute hospital and lost the longest residential home placement had ever had because his abuse had been the fuel for extreme challenging behavior of mine.

people need to take more responsibility instead of victim blaming,so what if someone is more vulnerable to abuse; we all have a right to use a support forum without the threat of some idiot thinking he can mouth off without consequence because its 'the internet' and not 'real life',theres a real life behind every internet connection,they need to think about that before abusing or bullying someone.

I'm sorry about what happened to you. People seem to forget that there's a face behind all of these screens.

How's the swimming, KOR? And your chickens?