Getting away with being weird as a child but not afterwards

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I never really got away with being weird. I was always like "screw you" towards people who had a problem with my weirdness though which didn't make life exactly easier when i grew older.

Yeah that's basically my story. As a kid I was just seen as sorta sensitive, shy, loner, late bloomer, wild child. After my diagnoses all people could say was "makes sense"

I was super weird as a kid but it didn't matter as much and I didn't care as much. mostly I didn't care as much, plus, I was lucky to have two friends who were crazy weirdos too, so I didn't feel like I was "that one weird kid". as a teenager I was also super weird but people around me cared a lot more and I started caring a lot more because of that pressure. my mom also got increasingly more concerned about how i presented myself. starting in my late teens and now as an adult I've reverted back to being weird and not caring about the social implications as much, and I've found I'm much happier. and honestly, I don't even think I'm much weirder than the other people I spend time around nowadays. i guess that would mean I'm "normal" lol

I get away with much more as an adult than I did as a child. Mostly I had trouble at home. My parents have this way of espousing the idea that their kids being different and unique was a good thing, then coldly condemning that very reality. My autistic struggles were painted as personal failings.

School was only really bad in elementary. There was non-physical bullying, but home was frequently worse. Then I went to a magnet middle school for gifted kids. It wasn't great for me academically, but I learned to be cruel and stopped giving a f**k. Pretty soon I preferred anything that meant getting away from my parents. And that's pretty much the driving theme that led me to today. Now I don't have any contact with my parents and pretty much do what the f**k I want. I've learned to put on a bit of a song and dance for job interviews, but then I drop the act and prove my competence. People don't care how weird you are once you've proven yourself integral to their jobs.

I was luckier to be in private school ans since I was already larger but younger than my classmates I got away with more with not fitting in. I despised my peers and tolerated the classmates 4 years older. I had extensive therapy growing up to normalize me not all pleasantly presented. I was the first female noticed in family with Asperger's and only member that sucked at advanced math. But that may be having public school in 7th and 8th grade and then in High school

I don't just beat up my current self for acting younger than my age, I do that to my younger self too.

Who else here is like that?

^I don't. I simply embrace how wonderful I am, and let the past disappear so I can focus on the present, on the now, for the now is all there ever is, and ever will be.

I'm taking a break from the family thing for the summer. I'll be ready to visit in time for my Dad's birthday in September. I'll stay around town where I can celebrate Schultz and Autism in general on the weekends.

It's just that I've been stuck in a hormonal fog for the last seven years.

It's just that I've been stuck in a hormonal fog for the last seven years. I used to be smart, but I suddenly turned stupid.

when i was in elementary school i was "weird" and hyperactive and loud and always wanted to play pretend like, no matter where i was/who i was with. it annoyed everyone; even my teachers who were really critical of me (looking back i'm disgusted at how teachers bullied a lot of the Aspie kids, including myself). like, the playing pretend thing was what most people thought was weird. i wore costumes to school (when my mom wouldn't let me, i would wear part of the costume usually as a shirt if i could). i would also have a lot of meltdowns in class whenever people stared at me or if a bunch of kids cornered me and insulted me in groups where it was loud/everyone talking at once. teachers would physically restrain me and i remember being humiliated. i still have meltdowns from time to time, and i still "play pretend" except in my head. it helps me cope in social situations to pretend to be something else or pretend to go thru certain instances that parallel what social experience i'm actually going thru. i love dolls/toys/bright colored clothing/general child-like stuff. they bring me a lot of comfort but i'm constantly worried it's creepy. i just have to keep it to myself. only my boyfriend knows that side of me and he is the only one that understands.

as soon as i was turning about 13-14 i started getting some of the most negative reactions i've ever received to my behavior and i tried hard to start being quiet and to stop talking so much. it took until my junior year in high school to finally act "normal" with memorized gestures and vocal intonations.

my other "annoying" trait is that most of my behavior is learned from movies and i quote tv/movies all the time.

same. but i realize sometimes that the only reason i feel ashamed is because other people make me feel that way, and if it weren't for them i'd be happy with the way i am. i get embarrassed because i love cartoons and dolls still and most people find that creepy.

I used to be the one kid who knew lots of random facts, but I turned into this vapid and slu*ty drama queen.

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I could relate to the OP.

It was a product of me pretending to be stupid.