MagicMeerkat wrote:
She also told me the university/college I want to go to wouldn't accept the home-school program I was doing. Guess what? I contacted them and they said they WOULD. She wanted me to go to this 22+ program for adults but I think I possibly might have a panic attack in that kind of setting or "zone out" and "leave my body" and not be able to learn anything. I also have PTSD from my experiences in public school and can't even watch TV shows or read books that take place in a school setting. People ask me how I think I can do a college experience then. First of all it's college, not a school setting and hopefully by then, I'd get help to be able to gradually expose myself. I don't want to risk traumatizing myself allover again which is what this 22+ program possibly could do to me if I dived in head first like the tutor wanted me to do.
I have PTSD-like issues around my old elementary school too. It's never been diagnosed, but everytime I even go by it in my car, I start to cry. I can't even stop it if I know it's coming and do all my mantras and breathing, and all that healthy mental outlook stuff. It's just raw emotion, no thoughts attached to it.
College is SO different. The whole vibe is changed. Students are there because they want to be there. No one is forcing you to stay if you don't want to stay. Everyone is an adult. You can get more into the subjects and talk on an adult level about the subject matter. I really hope you get the chance to go and learn what it is to be a student in a non-coercive situation. If you're like me, it won't trigger you at all because it's just so different.
I don't know about at 22+ program, especially if it's held in a high school. I like studying on my own. If it were me, I would teach myself the GED math with the help of an online tutoring system. But the 22+ program would also have the advantage that college has - everyone there would want to be there. You'd be surprised how much that makes a difference.
10 Feb 2017, 10:16 am
