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29 May 2007, 1:20 pm

So far, in terms of social interaction (my main AS-related problem) I first got better (childhood to early adolescence to late adolescence) and then got much worse (late adolescence to adulthood). I'm still better than I was as a child, though.


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29 May 2007, 1:58 pm

help i seem to be getting more autistic posted yet again


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29 May 2007, 5:42 pm

Seems to be with me. But there's a lot more stress in my life than there was back when I was younger. Marriage, moving, employment, etc.

What I wouldn't give to be 8 again.



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29 May 2007, 5:48 pm

Error wrote:
What I wouldn't give to be 8 again.


Yeek. 8O

I would not want to be 8 again. I have more responsibilities now but being 8 was awful.


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30 May 2007, 1:46 am

anbuend wrote:
Error wrote:
What I wouldn't give to be 8 again.

I would not want to be 8 again. I have more responsibilities now but being 8 was awful.

Exactly, me neither, I am more content now than during my childhood.



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30 May 2007, 9:16 am

Hmmm. I suppose I'm drawn to that time because life was more simple. All I generally had to worry about was dealing with boredom most days. There's so many things to worry about now it makes me sick. Going back to 18 and making some changes would be a close second.



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30 May 2007, 9:19 am

Four in the body of a four year old was a good time.... Four in this twenty-fifth isn't so.



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30 May 2007, 12:48 pm

Life's definitely got better with age. When I was a child/teenager, I had no friends and knew I was weird but had no idea why. I was the worst in the school at sports, and felt I didn't have enough 'common sense' to ever have a normal life. It amazes me how things have got better with time. In particular how easily I can pass for normal now.

It's been a slow process of gradual learning, with relapses along the way. Maybe I had a bad start with the school I went to, followed by good fortune meeting friendly, tolerant people at university and beyond.

Strangely for one who was unhealthy and unfit as a child, I'm much fitter and young looking than most people of my age now (52). Even got married two years ago.



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30 May 2007, 1:11 pm

I'm about the same. I've gotten better in some respects, maybe worse in others (short-term memory). I know a lot of people have problems with memory when they get older but I'm only 25 and I can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago. I still have an excellent long-term memory though.


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30 May 2007, 1:17 pm

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By the way, thanks for posting this. I experienced a major burn-out several years ago when I was in college and this sheds a lot of light on what I went through.


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30 May 2007, 1:43 pm

The age of 8 for me was spent being totally unable to avoid bullies and other abuse. That's why the yecch reaction.


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30 May 2007, 8:06 pm

kittenfluffies wrote:
I'm about the same. I've gotten better in some respects, maybe worse in others (short-term memory). I know a lot of people have problems with memory when they get older but I'm only 25 and I can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago. I still have an excellent long-term memory though.


That definitely has gotten worse with me. I've walked into a room and stood there looking around not at all certain what I came for. Happens much more often that I'd like to admit and it sorta scares me a little.

I also lose and misplace things more frequently than I used to.



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31 May 2007, 10:14 pm

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Does anyone notice that their autism actually worsens with age? Mine certainly does. When I was growing up and my brain was still expanding, I slept a lot, behaved oddly but I did not feel the worst effects like the running mind or the meltdowns. Now that I am in my thirties, and far more aware of the limitations that autism imposes on me, I find that the effects of autism really hits me. Maybe when I was young and there were not that many bad memories to recall, the running mind problem does not get to show me a slide show of the worst moments of my life over and over again. Happiness is just one of the prerogatives of innocence. But as I age, the effects on my body becomes ever more pronounced. I started noticing irregularities in my heart rate and beat when I was in my early twenties. It would come and it would go. Since I exercise regularly, I am by no means unfit. The physiological symptoms coincides perfectly with the rhythm of slipping in and out of autistic impairment.

Does anyone else amongst the more mature members of this community have the same experience?


Yes, I'm very similar to this; for many years I had the problem of being sensitive to how others perceived me, more times than I can count has the question "what's wrong?" escaped me.

However only last year I would freak out in a manner like this - for instance ending up in tears due to missing a commercial my brother wished me to see, which would be repeated anyway! But I felt that I'd let him down, thus the activation of the running mind and meltdowns. A few major incidents like this, and only have they begun last year [I'm 21].



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31 May 2007, 11:51 pm

Maybe. Some aspie traits got worse after I was 18.

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ya. When I was very Young, I was really cute.
I grew a little and was a little different.
I grew more and was unusual.
For a while I was considered funny "That's just Jo"
Later I was considered eccentric ....'the shrink says"your eccentric like me" ' (scary thought)
In the military I was strange... then weird "she really doesn't belong here."

That's what I seem to look like to other people.


That's what I wanna say!



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30 Aug 2018, 7:23 am

I'm 53, and I feel things are worse than ever.

Ever more regularly I am having attacks of worry and anxiety, which then lead to heart palpitations and stomach issues. I can pretty much guarantee now that if I have an argument at work or with a colleague, by evening I will be feeling bad, that I won't sleep, and that by morning I will be unable to get out of bed due to a racing heart. Usually the symptoms dissipate by midday.

I even worry that I am going to worry... Example: I like to travel. But in recent years, often on the day of departure I will wake up with the racing heart problem. Last week I had this and couldn't leave home, resulting in a lost train ticket and the need to buy a new much more expensive one later the same day. I worry that I am going to have this problem, and then I do! (self-fulfilling prophecy).

I have fewer friends that I have ever had (essentially none), and I find there is no joy or fun in my life at all. I see others around me having a great time, and it really saddens me that I cannot be in on that. I've tried taking parts in clubs and activities, but I'm always the outsider, on the sidelines being tolerated, but not part of the action.



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30 Aug 2018, 9:05 am

Macowiec,

I also feel that way. I find myself getting more and more stressed. Life is generally good, but I want to keep it that way. A lot of good things are about to happen and I don't want to ruin them.