01 Nov 2017, 5:02 pm
02 Nov 2017, 1:30 am
When I told her my sister laughed at my haircut ("everyone thinks you're a boy!"), and when I got the cold, the counselor told me "I'm sorry")
When I told her an on leash dog approached me while I was eating, sitting against the wall, and it scared me, she told me it was an "unfortunate thing that happened". When I told her someone called me a "fa***t", she told me that is "unfortunate"
She told me I "felt bad" when the high school Dean made a mountain out of a molehill.
It was like
devils advocate 
or 
reverse psychology 
.Maybe she says the Holocaust is "unfortunate thing that happened" and she is "sorry"
Usually when I point out a pattern of negative things happening, she acts for an example of an exception. Then she asks how the exception was different
But I do not feel like she steers me toward positive thinking per se.
She indulges my emotions
You need to talk to her about this and ask her why she tries to validate your feelings. Tell her what you expected instead.
02 Nov 2017, 8:58 am
Hurt loam
I already talked to her about it. She said she was using empathy, not trying to measure the objective absolute severity of the situation....
She appears sincere and honest and caring (in my often wrong opinion).
Maybe I am unreasonable for expecting something more concrete
Her logic sounded weak, but almost everyone's logic sounds weak
Like when she said "you felt bad", as if to imply that I have a moral right to never feel "bad". "If it hurts, it is hurtful". So ambiguous. But the word hurt sounds dramatic, malicious and extreme. Like in the Mandated Reporter Law, the counselor has to report if the client talks about "hurting" someone. physically injure 
, not 
hurt 
.
She said she is concerned with my emotions. She is not a juror or judge. She was not there at the scene
Everyone is biased, even witnesses at the scene
Because I could just imagine her telling the other party that I "hurt" the other party. And the other party "felt bad". And then she might tell the other party that "you don't seem like you would hurt anyone,". Way too vague. How I "seem" to one person, in one situation, is not how I "seem" to everyone in all situations
And then she compared me to Rosa Parks in that I went to the wrong lockerroom and the water polo coach had a problem with it, while Rosa (allegedly) sat in the "whites only" seat on the bus and refused to move. Thus triggering Montgomery bus boycott.
But at least one homophobic precious lil "person" had the nerve to compare me to a murderer, in that "you make people uncomfortable with the way you dress!", while murderers make people uncomfortable by killing them......
Dichotomous thinking
Maybe like the meditation facilitator had the nerve to tell me, " we would rather not have you doing yoga. 
It's distracting ".
In other words I am not a civil rights hero like Rosa Parks. And I am not a 
murderer 
Maybe I am just a distraction
Because it has been over 11 years since UCSD changed the lockerroom policy, in response to when I used the wrong lockerroom. (Ucsd 2006)
And of everyone that I told about it, only two compared me to Rosa Parks. And both were professional counselors.......
Nobody treats me like a hero, so I don't feel like a hero.
Not many people treat like a murderer or rapist
Plenty of people treat me like a distraction
Besides, history is just "his story"
Some articles claim that Rosa Parks was trying to make a political statement, her feet were tired, and she sat on a "whites only " seat. Some articles claim that Rosa was not trying to make a political statement, her feet were not tired, and she was not sitting on a "whites only" seat. It said Rosa was sitting in a middle section, and all the "white only" seats were taken by whites....
There is no way to know the truth
"The truth"
Some articles claim that a fifteen years old black girl Claudette Colvin sat on a "white only" seat and refused to give it up, and got sent to jail. Nine months before Rosa Parks's performance.
But Claudette could not have been the plaintiff, because Claudette was under 18, so someone selected Rosa Parks
But Claudette did not get famous and get worshipped like a hero
So....... There is no method to find out "the truth"
And maybe "the truth" does not matter that much
Claudette Colvin, underage minor hero, 15 years old. Predecessor to Rosa Parks
And when I became the first transgender in the wrong lockerroom at ucsd, in 2004. Only 4 people found out about it. (That I did not personally tell). Even the maintenance man did not know
There was no sign that said "men and male to female transsexual and female to male transsexual"
And that was years before Caitlin Jenner won the Arthur Ashe courage award.
