autistic123 wrote:
Look I know what I did was wrong. I know that. If I could turn back time I would never do any of that stuff
That's good, and an important step. The next step is to learn better coping skills, so that the next time you get angry or upset you have better skills to cope with those feelings around other people and don't end up doing something you regret later like threatening violence. A good social worker or therapist can help teach you better skills for dealing with those kinds of feelings.
When you have kids you are going to get upset and frustrated with them sometimes, you have to have better skills in place to deal with that then threatening violence or you will be an abusive parent.