What do you struggle with the most

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Ignorance problems with independence and ambiguity

Asserting myself.

expressing myself and my feelings verbally

I would say expressing myself and my feelings verbally and trying to find out other people's intentions.

Being unrealistic

Communication and independence.

Fitting in socially is an impossibility to me. I have a very hard time relating to NT small talk. I also have sensory issues with bright lights and certain loud noises (like those found at crowded places).

Yesterday my apartment building had a social event that I was encouraged to attend. It was held at a local bar. Big mistake for me to show up to it. It was very crowded in the main area due to the small size of the place. The sound of everyone talking at the same time was bad. I went to the bar and ordered a regular coke. Unfortunately, they only had Coke Zero to drink, but it was free during the event. I dislike the taste of diet sodas.

My verbal part of my brain basically shut down and I went mute at this point. My shyness prevented me from going up and introducing myself to other people. It really did not matter because no one wanted to talk to me as they were engrossed in their own conversations. I sat down away from the crowd in a side part and let my mind wander on my theoretical research interests for the remainder of an hour before deciding to leave to go to the grocery store. Everyone knew everyone else, so I was not needed there. It is painfully obvious that I should avoid going to these get togethers as I cannot function at them.

I struggle the most with getting stuck on something mentally. When stuck, I cannot think about or do anything else. I do not think that I have ever gotten stuck on something bad for me. But even if it is just something unproductive (playing video games), or on occasion something really good for me (eating well), it is always to the exclusion of everything else.

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31st of July, 2013
Diagnosed: Autism Spectrum Disorder, Auditory-Verbal Processing Speed Disorder, and Visual-Motor Processing Speed Disorder.

Weak Emerging Social Communicator (The Social Thinking-­Social Communication Profile by Michelle Garcia Winner, Pamela Crooke and Stephanie Madrigal)

"I am silently correcting your grammar."

Where do I start?

If I have to narrow it down to one (and there are other struggles), I'll roll with being disorganized.

Socially awkward

Emotionally fragile

Grudges

Lazy

No friends

Sensory sensitivity , anxiety (general And social) , being in a trance type state (just standing around and staring and etc ) , socially awkward .

Getting a job.

Bullying

Dissociation

Paying attention

Expression anger

Speech is a big issue with me. I do a lot of talking at my job, and sometimes I stutter, lose my words, or say something awkward.

Lack of energy/fatigue, the shame I feel about my differences and sensory processing issues are my top struggles.