Need to be alone

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I like being with others/being alone to be on MY terms; when that's not possible, it really stresses me out. When I'm alone in my little hovel of an apartment, I sometimes get really upset because there's no one but me to talk to. On the other hand, when I'm forced to be around/interact with others (like at work), it frustrates the heck out of me because I can't really be alone if and when I need to (except in the restroom, haha!). I forced myself to be brave this afternoon, and ventured down to the Museum of the Art Institute of Chicago. It was an absolute zoo because of a Toulouse-Lautrec exhibit that recently opened, but since I'm not really into his stuff, I was able to escape into some relatively quiet areas and walk around unhindered. It was pretty peaceful and relaxing - but after awhile, I got bored and kind of sad, because I had no one to talk to! Feh.

At least I always have myself to talk to.

I like spending quite a lot of time on my own, doing whatever. The only trouble is, if I lose a friend or there's problems with a person in my life, I hate being on my own and start to panic a bit and get restless. It's hard to find the exact balance between being alone enough and socialising enough. I think being alone is fine in itself: it only turns into loneliness when you are alone but wish you weren't.

Also, sometimes I would love to just talk to one particular person, but failing that, would like to be alone.

I wonder if there is such a place, renaeden... I wonder...[/quote]

If I find it, I'll let you know!

Ooh, hey, hey. I'll be waitin' for that PM then! Any day now... any day...

I prefer to be alone. I need human contact when my limited amount of human contact gives me questions I can't answer. Then I look around for NT style folks who can explain to me what happened. Unfortunately, to have friends you have to stay in touch with them. I am horrible at this because when alone with my toys, I lose track of everything else. I don't even do email that well. If someone emails me I respond, but initiating an email is a lost cause.
I used to wrap my solitude around me when I went outside, this enabled me to go places without too much distress. For some reason I have lost that.
I have spent all of today trying to get myself out of doors. No promise of new toys or treats worked. I may try later when it is darker; that worked when I lived in NYC.