What's a borderline Aspie?

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You hold your nose closed.

Like, what the f**k have I just read? What rubbish are they saying about Aspies on the internet?
Stop me if you disagree with this, but the way they put it on the internet is beginning to make me think I'm some alien from Mars. Practically we are deformed, ret*d, different, nervous weirdos. We are NOT any of these, but that's what the facts about AS and Autism on the web are saying. Not in those words, but as you read through, the message is loud and clear.
The way I read it, it sounds like they are telling us that we are completely abnormal.
On one of the web pages, it said something like: ''NTs may have to speak to an Aspie differently to other NTs''. No thanks, mate! I don't want to be spoken to like I'm two! Yeh, OK, I like to be understood by people, but I still want to be treated the same as the average adult, for christ sake!
Who do they think Aspies are? Thickos? I don't think so! If Aspies were that stupid to want to be treated like nursery kids, then they wouldn't be brave enough to sit down and discuss themselves on the web, would they! Instead they would be sitting there with a dunce hat on in the corner.
So - think again, NTs! Aspies want to be treated with general respect - not toddler-respect!

I suspect that I might be a borderline aspie, but I'm unsure. Although I do have a set routine, I can be flexible if I need to, without being too disturbed by the change. Lately, I've even been getting a little bored about some aspects of my routine. I am very mellow without any sensory overloads, and I occasionally have mild emotional meltdowns. However, the meltdowns could also be caused by depression or PMS. I don't always have a special interest, and if I do get one, I usually just obsess in my head, without always talking about it with others. Over time I've also learned to be witty with my use of words (if given enough time to process the situation), I've learned to maintain regular eye contact, and I no longer have problems with making friends. Though, I still am very bad at reading body language and facial expressions, and it could be hard for me to figure out people's intentions.
I still have been considered eligible for Special Education and job placement assistance because I process everything at a super slow rate. I talk slow, move slow, and I'm extremely cognitively delayed in some areas. For instance, it took me 3 - 6 hours to write a 2 page double spaced, essay with standard sized font when I was in college, and I didn't learn the difference between left, right, vertical, horizontal and diagonal until the 6th grade. (Although my IQ tested above average, to some people it doesn't appear that way.)
I've had one psychologist diagnose me as autistic, another psychologist diagnose me with asperger's, and another one state that I'm neurotypical. The current one I'm seeing diagnosed me with PDD-NOS. I think that this might be the most accurate evaluation. When I asked my current psychologist if I was borderline, though, she didn't say yes or no. She just said that I have atypical autism, and that there's all kinds of degrees, and that there's not always a clear yes/no answer about whether someone is or isn't autistic.