Make a list of things you dislike about your life

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What do I hate about my life?
Having to deal with people that whine.

I hate that I've gotten myself into a mess, and now feel it won't be easy to get things back to normal. In some sense of the word.

Dissatisfaction with ones life seems to be a pretty common facet of human nature.

It is all relative....sure I am not slogging around in a mud pit and being chased by bears...I am not a homeless lunatic...I have all my teeth....

multi-zillionaires who like in gigantor mansions have things in their lives they are dissatisfied with...

mental and physical well-being are important things to have going for ones self....both of these things could be better for me right now.

1. Dealing with my ex.
2. Never being able to make a decent pan of brownies unless I use a mix.

The list has seriously downsized over the years.

1. The ONLY friends I have are fictional or online.

1. I can't sleep if there is any noise. A dog could be barking two towns over, and I'd hear it.
2. My job is an absolute nightmare for Aspies.
3. I only see my boyfriend every few months, because he's in the Navy. I worry about him, and miss him very much.
4. I would like to keep in touch with friends and family, but I can't seem to find the initiative to call anyone.
5. I have a car, but no license. I don't know if I'll ever be able to drive alone.
6. All my friends live at least 30 minutes away, and I spend all my time at work, at home, or shopping with my Mom.
7. I've done a lot in my past that I regret deeply, and memories and guilt still get at me pretty often.
8. I have scoliosis, which is actually worsening even though I stopped growing years ago. Even walking up stairs is becoming difficult, because my hips are very crooked.

Most of those things can be countered with a positive, though. I may not see my family and friends often, but I know I have family and friends. My mom may be the only person I hang out with regularly, but I do enjoy spending time with her. My boyfriend may be far away, but I am blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life. My past may hold painful and shameful memories, but it is the past. My present is okay, my future looks good. My job sucks, but at least I have one. I had a rough childhood, but I survived.

Life can be tough, but I try to focus on my blessings. Lately, I am trying extra hard to deserve them as well.

1. I can't seem to lose the weight that I gained while on medications, no matter what I do.
2. So damned sensitive to noise. Wish I wasn't.
3. Wish I was able to read non verbal language, and could then stop being paranoid.
4. Dislike the physical signs, symptoms of aging, while I remain the emotional age of about 15, LOL.

Wow, I ran out of things. A few years ago, there would have been much more.

I have insomnia.

I don't drink enough water.

01. I never knew I had AS until I had a child with autism. Thus, my entire life sucked because I thought I was the only one on earth who was like this.
02. Sometimes I feel like my aspie husband and I are speaking different languages when we disagree.
03. I don't have a mom. There's a woman who gave birth to me, but I never had a mom. I'm bitter about it.
04. I live in an economically depressed hell hole where the number one goal is getting out and the number one pastime is screwing in cars parked on cinder blocks in the yard. I hate it here more than words can adequately convey.
05. I also reside in the snow belt. I hate snow and cold makes me hurt.
06. When confronted with math problems, I have meltdowns. This semester has been brutal, as I was taking Statistics.
07. I want to spend the holidays with my family, I miss that. But they all smoke and I won't take my kids around it.
08. I have PTSD. It comes with frequent nightmares and occasional flashbacks. 14 years of this.
09. I have scoliosis and degenerative disc disease. It hurts.
10. People don't do their jobs and I have to deal with the fallout of their idiocy and laziness.
11. I am quickly approaching 30 and my career has not yet launched.
12. A great deal of the problems I have had to deal with the hard way could have been avoided if my parents were actually parents when I was a kid, and I'm super pissed that they decided to have a child but then did nothing parents should.
13. I have no fond memories of school.
14. I find friendships exhausting, but when I push people away completely, I feel alone.
15. I don't understand social hierarchies. Some of them just plain make me angry. The whole female pecking order thing, for example. I won't be pecked into any order unless it makes logical sense...and most of what women do makes absolutely NO logical sense.
16. As a kid I never understood why I was supposed to play stupid where adults were concerned and not have a conversation with them on the same level. It just never made any sense to me.