DJRnold wrote:
I am losing my intelligence...
I have felt it escalating for many months now. First I noticed that I misunderstood things more often than usual, and I needed more detailed explanations than usual. My comprehention and perception skills and my ability to reason seemed to be diminishing. Now I have noticed that my reading skills are getting worse. I have to read sentences and parts of sentences several times before I take in what I've read (I used to only need to do that once or twice). This happens the most when I'm reading something that I wrote (including this post). I read it to make sure it makes sense, and to check for mistakes. And when it comes to whether or not my post makes sense, I always have doubts.
I'll be starting Grade 12 in a month, and after that it's University. But not if I keep getting "stupider". It is very important that I regain what I've lost. Soon.
What (do you think) is going on and what can I do about it?
Classic stress symptoms.
You need to touch base again.
For most Aspies, that means spending a number of days alone .... and I MEAN alone, as in several days and several nights in your own home doing ONLY what pleases you.
The chief source of stress for most Aspies is social contact.
Removing it allows them to return to basal stress levels.
It's every bit as simple as that.
Chronic stress leads to withdrawal and shutdown, to the point that it's possible to become almost totally dysfunctional regardless of how much effort is put in.
Pushing yourself may seem laudable, but for Aspies it's actually counter-productive because they're having to push themselves to achieve reasonable function, all the time, anyway.
When this kind of thing happens to you, you need to take your foot well and truly OFF the gas until such time as good functionality returns.
And as much as anyone may hate it, it's the only thing that works.
It's a physical constraint that can't be altered.
Take some time for you to become yourself again.
I have spent a lot of my summer in my room at my computer, writing in forums and watching YouTube videos. And though what I've been doing interests me, all summer I've wanted to actually accomplish something or go somewhere. But I haven't been able to bring myself to do it very much.
I have had to interact with family members on a daily basis and there have been a few arguments. I also have chores, which I don't like and they probably give me some stress, but there's no way I can refuse to do chores... that would lead to a stressful argument that would end with me doing the chores anyway.