i was two months early, but there may have been a twin...they had another heartbeat until four and a half months...but the doctor says it "could have been an echo". that might have been just to keep from freaking out my mother. i was a total accident, parents were using TWO kinds of birth control because mother almost died having my brother, and my brother was actually born dead. (full-term in his case, just an anesthesia problem) mother took something to prevent miscarriage when she got pregnant with me, and her body didn't seem to want me...bad pregnancy. i like to say i was a colorful infant: blue baby, jaundiced (yellow), and had roseola. i was also screwy from the start...never slept (well, i think mother exaggerates with NEVER) until they put me on pheno at 4 months, cried but didn't want to be held-except by my great-grandmother, but she scared my mother because apparently she held me like i was a sack of potatoes. i probably didn't want to be held as closely as other people were trying to hold me?
the point here may not be the oxygen-deprivation common to premature births, but that premature births are often but not always due to a pregnancy that is not progressing well. there are any number of reasons for this, but whatever the reason the stress hormones associated with this and any other imbalances might be a factor. my full-term brother, while he has no diagnosis, thinks so much like me we freak people out when we're in the same room. so heredity might be a factor, and tim might be less affected because the pregnancy itself wasn't as stressful...? just a thought.
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